The Kouri Richins Guilty Verdict

What a catastrophic verdict for a woman who seemed to think she was going to get away with murder, by claiming her husband was a drug seeking addict. Meanwhile she was portraying herself as a grief-stricken young mother, who wrote a children’s book to help her children cope. 

The children now have the impossible task of having to cope with the knowledge their mother killed their father, and tried to do so more than once. Even more disturbing is the fact she killed him late at night, while the children slept, and then she used one of the children as an alibi, claiming she was sleeping in his room. 

Her intent was to kill her husband. It was plot she was stewing and brewing for months. She directly, and indirectly involved multiple people, primarily drug dealers. Her financial crimes involved even more people. To top it off, she was cheating on her husband, so her lover was part of the courtroom drama. 

She was found guilty on all counts, to include aggravated murder, attempted aggravated murder, two counts of insurance fraud, and forgery. She is facing many more charges, for a variety of other financial crimes.

Aggravated murder is more serious than first degree murder. In fact, it is the worst, and most heinous form of murder, often warranting the death penalty, or life without parole.

To be convicted of both aggravated murder, and attempted aggravated murder is deeply alarming, especially when you consider the cumulative aspects of the other crimes, motivated by greed.

Perhaps the most shocking of all, is the fact there was testimony claiming Kouri had also taken out insurance policies on her three young boys. Why would anyone take out insurance policies on children, unless there was a sinister motive?

People take out insurance policies because adults are capable of earning income, and often have debts, and assets to be taken care of. Children do not have earning power, nor do they have debts. They are not responsible for providing for anyone, including themselves. One would think she would take out an insurance policy on her own life, so if anything happened to her, there would be money to raise, and care for the children. 

Thankfully Eric had the foresight to take out insurance on his own life, and set up a trust so his children would be financially cared for if he died. If it had been left up to Kouri, the children would not have either parent, nor would they have any financial means to face a future without their father’s income, and without parents. 

She will be facing sentencing within the next couple of months. I believe it is scheduled for what would have been her husband’s birthday.

When she wrote the Walk the Dog letter from her jail cell, then held it up for her mother to read, it was damning. At the end of it, she wrote about the importance of getting this done and over with, so she could get out, and “go after those bitches”. Sheesh. 

She compounded her guilt in so many ways. Juror number 3 gave an excellent interview, providing significant insight about the process of deliberation, the reason it took just three hours to reach a verdict, and how the trial impacted the jurors emotionally. 

She identified the most damning evidence as being cell phone data once it was extracted, and aligned with the drug dealers testimonies. She commented on the private investigator, and what a character he was, refusing to crack under cross examination. 

He came to the trial with a cane and a neck brace on, yet his toughness, and determination was not diminished in the least. 

Kouri deleted hundreds of text messages, emails, and phone calls, but technology turned out to be far more advanced than she is.

The juror also explained there was testimony from an undercover cop that was not made public. It was also damning evidence against Kouri, because the person who was killed in a motorcycle accident, and unable to give testimony, had also been asked by Kouri to get fentanyl. He refused. 

When she asked the dealers for fentanyl or “some of that Michael Jackson stuff” – how much more obvious could she be? She wanted a lethal drug.

The defence tried to argue there was no proof of how the fentanyl entered Eric Richin’s body. But in my opinion there was proof. The proof was the fact the fentanyl, and Seroquel were in his stomach. He had ingested more than five times a lethal dose of illicit fentanyl. A significant amount of it was still in his stomach, because he died before it was digested, and distributed throughout his system. This proves the route of administration was oral.

If Eric Richins had taken those drugs himself, there would have been a glass, or some kind of container nearby with the drug residue.

Nothing whatsoever was found to suggest he had prepared, or taken the drugs himself. None of the testimony about him pointed to a person who used illicit opiates. If he took the drugs himself, how did his wife’s Seroquel get into the mix? Would anyone believe he would take his wife’s antipsychotic prescription drug, along with five times the lethal does of fentanyl? He was a happy, well-adjusted, successful guy. 

Key point. She is the one who sourced out the fentanyl, not him. 

The fact the crime scene was clean, means it was cleaned up. After all, there was a dead body, which begged an explanation. When you add the fact it took so long for her to start CPR, the evidence, and suspicions became cumulative. It is doubtful she even attempted to do CPR. It certainly did not sound like it. CPR takes a certain amount of effort. As it was, six minutes went by before she even got him off the bed, and onto the floor. 

Kouri professed she was sleeping in one of the children’s rooms. But her story is not likely to be the truth, based on the many lies she has told. Only she knows what happened, and what she did after he took the deadly dose.

It is more likely she administered the drugs, then waited to be sure he was dead. Meanwhile, she had plenty of time to clean up all the evidence, and get rid of it. She did not realize the absence of evidence, is more suspicious than if the glass had been left at the bedside. 

It defies logic how anyone could repeatedly incriminate themselves, leave a trail of evidence, and then keep on scheming up more crimes.

People are now speculating on the sentencing, which will be left up to the judge to weigh all the evidence, and make a decision. He will no doubt be thorough, and fair, because he certainly did a good job managing the entire trial. 

I believe she will get life without parole. The combination of aggravated murder, financial motives, and the inability to show remorse, or take a step back, and evaluate the direction she was headed, is indicative of her potential for doing more harm. 

The plan to kill her husband was not a spontaneous thing. She was plotting, and scheming for months. The same with the forgery, and other fraud. She did one thing after another, and showed no sign of letting up. She was on a diabolical single-minded laser focused, albeit haphazard mission.

Other than some serious mental health issues, and the very strong financial motives, I think there was simmering revenge underneath it all.

Marriage is supposed to be built on a foundation of love, trust, and joint partnership. Given Kouri’s attraction to money, when she met Eric, it must have seemed like she hit the jackpot. They had their first child before they got married.

Apparently she was presented with a prenuptial on the day they got married. It must have infuriated her. The prenuptial was structured so that if they divorced, she got nothing. The house was in his name. It was a 4800 square foot home in a nice area. However, if he died before she did, she would get the house. Or so she thought.

When she stole money from Eric by forging his signature, and taking out a $250,000 loan on the house, he lost trust in her. He also suspected she was trying to poison him, long before the fatal dose was administered. He also suspected she was having an affair. Talk about a high stakes game of cat and mouse.

He surreptitiously set up a trust without tipping his hand, and gave his sister power of attorney. This closed off all avenues for her getting his money and assets. She did try different things, but she got caught.

One can only speculate…from the day they got married, she began to see him as the enemy. There was an attitude of “me first, and me against him, and his family”. This was a toxic undercurrent seeping into the cracks of their marriage. It was a competition, not a partnership. She would show him.

As she spiralled into more and more grandiose delusions, the “midway mansion” became the ultimate game of one-upmanship. She was going to get this huge house, a much bigger house, and she would own it, live with her lover, and raise their children on the property. All this could be achieved, once she got rid of her husband. 

Eric was a means to an end. He was also a  means to a new beginning, where she “had it all” and he got nothing, not even his life, let alone his money and assets. She would run her grandiose multi-million dollar business, call the shots, and everyone would bow down, and cater to her – because she was the queen in control of it all. He was an obstacle, who she just needed to get out of her way. 

Her husband was a good businessman, and was successful. He had built a solid business, brick by brick, and stone by stone. He was a mason. He understood what a solid foundation was, long before he met her. As far as business acumen is concerned, they were opposites. She was impulsive, a poor planner, a flipper, and a gambler. He was a well established brick and mortar builder. 

Instead of being grateful, and proud of him, she resented his abilities. Her husband was a good father, and was well liked. She must have hated him, for being everything she was not. 

On Valentine’s Day, she left a poisoned sandwich on the seat of his work truck, with a love note, and then went off to spend the day with her lover. But damn, he managed to live through it. She needed stronger drugs. She telegraphed her intentions to multiple people.

Sadly, for whatever reasons, her husband did not lock her out, and get a restraining order. If he had, he would still be alive. One can only imagine how he felt when he suspected her of poisoning him. It is an incomprehensible abuse, let alone to deliver it with a love note, then head off to spend the special day with her lover. 

I have always believed the biggest mistake a murder victim makes, is not believing the perpetrator will actually carry through with it. It is difficult to believe a spouse, friend, or family member would plot to kill you. We also tend to believe we are invincible. There is always the hope things will get better, not worse.

I wonder if Kouri will speak at her sentencing, and if so, whether there will be any apologies or admission of guilt. It is kind of a two-edged sword, because an admission of guilt might reduce her sentence. But it could also reduce the chance of an appeal. I doubt she will ever admit guilt, or give up on an opportunity to appeal.

Some people claim she put herself in the investigative crosshairs by writing, or claiming to have written a children’s book. As it turned out, she hired a ghost writer, and even so, it was poorly written.

It certainly did get her into the media, because until she did the media interviews, most of us had never heard of the case. So many people die of drug overdoses, initially I just assumed he was an addict, and died of an accidental overdose.

But as the story came out, it certainly did not look like Eric Richins was a down and out fentanyl addict. He was an active, outgoing person with a successful business, and a good reputation.

Even without the attention from the children’s book, I think she would have been charged. The financial crimes, forensic audit, lover on the side, and cell phone extractions, all pointed to motive, and guilt.

The drug dealers may have had some credibility issues, but the cell phone data corroborated their testimony, leaving little doubt she was seeking to obtain a lethal cocktail of drugs. Not for herself, but for her husband, who she was not getting along with. To top it off, she was juggling a potent financial disaster, and was headed for a massive crash. 

When they said their marriage vows, they were supposed to be joined together as one. But they were not. Money came between them, festered and grew into a monstrous act of revenge, and getting even. Even though money and greed was the motive, I think revenge was what poisoned her soul.

It was reported she felt slighted as a child, helping her aunt clean the homes of wealthy people. The fact she never owned, or had part ownership of their matrimonial home, might have triggered and magnified those feelings of inferiority.

True security and confidence, does not need the approval of others. It is not based on image or money. We tend to think it does, but it is an illusion.

Kouri seemed closest to her mother, for whatever reasons. Her brother must be confused, and feel guilty over his loyalties. If he supported her, and her antics – he looks bad, like the whole family is on the wrong side of the tracks. But if he is not loyal to her, he is letting her down, when she has so little support. 

Her family has to live in the outside world, in spite of what happens to her. Her children have to go through all the stages of growth, with each stage requiring an expanded understanding of what happened to their family. One day they were playing soccer, and living what they thought was a  normal life, and then all of a sudden, their world fell apart.

In the following year after Eric’s death, before her arrest, they were grieving, and carrying on. Then the next blow, was when mommy goes to jail. They lost both parents.

Along with such a phenomenal loss, is knowing the entire world watched their mother get convicted of five major crimes, especially aggravated murder. It is a burden no child should ever have to carry. It will haunt them for life.

Her true nature got put on the stand, and under a microscope. If it really is her true nature, may God have mercy, and help her to realize it, and repent. 

A marriage without a proper foundation can be a recipe for disaster. Sometimes people stay in a toxic marriage for the sake of the children. In this particular case, he would have been better off to follow through on the divorce.

But when there are children involved, both parents have a right to see the children. He would have known there would be a custody battle. It took until she committed the crime of murder, to put a stop to her access to the children. 

It is understandable why Eric would have felt trapped by the situation he was in. She said she felt trapped, because if she left, she would have to leave a comfortable life, and beautiful home. But she was not facing a murder plot – he was. 

She was trapped by her own delusions. It could have been, and should have been so much different. Her thought processes became skewed. She wanted control of his assets. She wanted the money, not the man. 

In reality, no one ever gets away with murder. With today’s technology, they can almost trace every step. During the Alex Murdaugh trial, they were able to track every step he took when he committed those murders. Murdaugh thought he was a brilliant third or fourth generation lawyer. He was not brilliant at all. He was a pathological liar, without a conscience. He violently murdered his own wife, and son.

With Brian Kohlberger, they not only matched DNA left behind at the scene, true crime sleuths pinpointed his car near the scene of the crime, within a matter of hours. Other true crime sleuths found online creepy comments made by Kohlberger, and quickly figured out who it was. He was a Ph.D student, who also thought he could outsmart everyone. He did not outsmart anyone. Even his own father knew something was off, and he might have been the one who committed those murders, long before he was arrested. 

When Kouri was forging documents, deleting text messages, and running around at 3 am to clean up a crime scene, and get rid of evidence, did she really believe she was covering her tracks? Did she think her fake acting, was going to win her an Oscar? 

Or was she, in her own warped subconscious mind, conning herself into a path of self-destruction? She was sabotaging her own life.

Prior to her train wreck, she had healthy kids, a successful husband, and could have done whatever she wanted, because she was financially supported. Not every woman has that kind of situation. Many of us had to work, in order to survive. She went on luxury vacations, had a nanny and housekeepers, and did not have any financial stress, until she herself created it. 

In hindsight, what might have prevented this tragedy? It is pure speculation, but I think it points back to the prenuptial. If it was presented by Eric’s mother on the day of the wedding, it might have been dramatic, but a quiet refusal, or delay in signing it, would have been the wisest thing to do. She could have simply said, it needs to be discussed, and agreed upon between herself and Eric privately. She could have deferred it, or let them call off the wedding. 

Since a prenuptial is a legal agreement, and they already had one child, I think she should have negotiated at the time. She had a right to take it to a lawyer, and make a counter offer, so her interests, and share in the matrimonial home would not be obliterated if there was a divorce. After all, the care of the children, and the home would be partly, or perhaps mostly her responsibility. Her husband had a business to run, and also went on frequent hunting trips, therefore someone had to be there for the children. 

The prenuptial should have had a provision for alimony if he was the primary breadwinner, while she cared for the home and children. I believe the prenuptial would have been fair to protect his business interests, since he had the business well established when they married. But given the fact they had children, and a family to raise, the matrimonial home should have been a shared asset. 

The problem with a prenuptial, is there is a projection of the failure, or breakdown of a marriage at the onset. However the marriage itself is a contract, a risk, and a financial partnership. If there is no trust, there should not be a marriage.

The spouse with more money and assets is taking a risk, and must accept the fact he is taking a risk. Therefore the prenuptial should be a joint decision between them, as to how they would handle a divorce, with the best interests of the children, while maintaining the financial stability of both parties. 

In my opinion, the defence should have gone back to the prenuptial agreement, and argued that it set the stage for resentment, and competition in the marriage, as opposed to cooperation and partnership. If it was presented on the day of the wedding, it should have been null and void, because of the undue pressure, and inappropriate timing given to sign it.

Kouri wanted out of the marriage. In fact both Kouri and Eric saw divorce lawyers at some point. Kouri stayed because she thought she would be financially destitute if she left. 

Nothing excuses what she did. But if she had been able to address the prenuptial early on, it might have saved both of them a lot of grief. She may still have committed crimes due to her personality, and excessive greed.

But it might be a cautionary tale for others who are considering a prenuptial, and how they might set it up, especially if they are raising a family together.

At the beginning of time, in the Garden of Eden, When Cain killed Abel, God knew immediately what had happened. When He asked Cain where his brother was, Cain sarcastically replied, “I don’t know. Am I my brother’s keeper?”. He foolishly thought he could evade God. God told him the blood of his brother cries out from the ground.

God created us. He knows what happens to people. No one ever gets away with murder. For every murder plot ever conceived of, if they only understood one thing – they will not get away with it. If the forensic evidence does not catch up with the person, God will.

For those who are caught and convicted, unless they repent with all sincerity, and cry out to God for mercy, they will face not just earthly consequences, but a far greater judgment. For those who do not repent, they are doomed.

Pre-meditated murder is difficult to understand. A fit of rage, or a drunken brawl, or a paranoid lashing out, or finding a spouse in bed with another person – can lead to an impulsive loss of control.

But pre-meditated murder, is when people make a to do list, and treat people as pawns or property. They manipulate, and involve other people. There are many layers to that ungodly cake walk. They will Google how to poison someone, get rid of a body, etc. yet they do not take the time to evaluate the probability of getting caught, and what it means.

How many of them Google, what are the consequences of aggravated murder, first degree murder, second degree murder, attempted murder?

All people should know the phones we use, the computers, tablets, online queries, and all purchases, we carry out on a daily basis, leave a traceable digital footprint. It cannot be erased.

All people should know there are cameras everywhere, in urban areas, and often even in wilderness areas. Countless people have doorbell cameras. Chris Watts had a neighbour whose camera picked up his murderous activities when he killed his family. In fact, the neighbour knew what happened before the police did.

There is no such thing as a perfect murder. It is true, some people have not been caught, and some serial murderers carried on killing for many years. The only reason they do get away with it for a period of time, is because they target vulnerable, transient prostitutes, or people who may not be missed. 

If they are the lone wolf type of hunter, and are not involving others in the crimes, there is less chance of being detected. Sometimes even the spouse of such a person, does not know what they are up to. 

What will happen to such a person on judgement day? They will find out that they did not, and will not, get away with murder.

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The Benefits & Drawbacks Of Social Media

Although opinions vary on the topic of its benefits, compared to its destructive elements – social media is not going away. Some people hate and mistrust the entire genre, while others embrace it as a way to be seen, or heard, or to monetize, and garner fleeting fame.

The fame associated with social media seems to be short lived, but regardless many people have risked their lives for likes on social media. The selfie craze can be a selfish craving. 

To outline some of the positives just as a matter of personal opinion, I think social media does have some benefits. It can help increase the voice of the ordinary person, from a democratic perspective in political commentary.

It can help people who are isolated, or disabled to stay in touch with, and have connection to the outside world.

It can also facilitate communication, gatherings, reunions, and family sharing, thus bridging long distances between people. It helps people to follow the activities, and growth of loved ones, as well as topics they are interested in. 

It is good for hobbyists, gardeners, sports, photographers, campers, hikers, collectors, fishing, car enthusiasts, nature lovers, and a variety of niche interests, who are seeking like-minded people.

There are forums that help with learning, with technical skills, and sharing stories that could benefit others. The information or support groups that stem from some of the social media channels can help people to find common ground, and help with mental health, or healing.

It delivers a wide variety of opinions, and ideas on multiple topics. It also shows things we would not know about otherwise. Some people capture amazing pictures of storm clouds, animals, sports, and other unusual sightings or events, which they share on social media.

Without videos or cameras, social media would not be as vast as it is. Therefore, the widespread use of cell phones, cameras, audio, and basically surveillance, has both positive and negative impacts. People now have doorbell cameras that have picked up crime as it happens.

Many crimes have been solved as a result of social media. The body of Gabby Petito may never have been found if it had not been for another traveller, and content creator who happened to drive past Gabby’s van on a remote dirt road. She recognized the van from Gabby’s social media posts, and as it turned out, her body was buried just feet away from where that video was taken. In fact, it appeared they may have inadvertently driven past, when her fiance was in the process of burying her body.

When people have loved ones go missing, so much of the agony is in not knowing what happened to them, or where their body is. Without a body, it is much more difficult to prosecute the crime of murder.

Cameras have helped solve many crimes, and if the imagery is clear, it provides solid evidence for the trial. Jurors like all people, have different learning styles. Some of us are impacted more by what we hear, while others have better retention based on what they see. Therefore, visual evidence is very important when it comes to getting justice for victims, and their families.  

In the case of Brian Kohberger, there were true crime sleuths who had him, and his car pinpointed long before he was caught. They also dug up many of his online aliases within days of the murders.

In the case of the Australian mushroom murders, Erin Patterson’s former FB posts cussing out her relatives was used as evidence in the trial. She had adamantly claimed how much she loved her in-laws, yet the social media posts told a very different story.

In addition, even though she tampered with evidence, and reset her cell phones, the police were able to pick up footage of her disposing of the food dehydrator she had used to dehydrate death cap mushrooms. Once it was retrieved, they were able to analyze it, and find the death cap mushroom spores inside.

From there, the police were able to track her movements. She visited social media pages that posted sightings of death cap mushrooms, giving the exact locations where death cap mushrooms were growing.

The police used those sightings to track her cell phone data, in order to prove she physically went to those locations. They also tracked her Internet searches, seeking specifics on the lethal dosages required. She also looked for recipes on social media, specifically ones with mushrooms as a main ingredient. Without social media, she may not have been convicted beyond a reasonable doubt. 

In spite of how intelligent she believed she was, she left a detailed bread crumb trail leading to her own conviction. 

On a brighter note, social media allows us to see parades, concerts, livestreams, and various other events we do not attend personally. It also shows protests, and can help determine how they are organized and managed, as well as if there is any vandalism or violence during the protest.

On the negative side, it seems to have increased vanity and narcissism. There are hundreds of cases where social media influencers have died trying to get the perfect selfie. Everything from dangling off cliffs, to various stunts, to standing next to wild animals, and even grabbing live wires above a train.

Although a high percentage of social media selfies do not end in death, it seems to detract from their mental health. Trying to create an image of perfection, is futile. It wears people down.

In one recent case, a young 16 year old girl who had become obsessed with her own image, and social media posts, ended up shooting her mother and stepfather. She seemed to think she could increase her fame, and number of views by pretending to be the victim of a crime. It was like she was acting out her own movie script as an Academy award winning actress.

Vanity is a pervasive part of human nature, and has been since the beginning of time. The book of Ecclesiastes in the Old Testament outlines all that is vanity in beautiful and poetic language. It is also known as The Preacher, and although it has been attributed to King Solomon, it is not clear who it was written by. It is believed to have been written between the 5th and 3rd century BCE.

As far as the authorship is concerned the very first line tells us in 1:1 and the next few lines tell us “all is vanity”.

1 The words of the Preacher, the son of David, king in Jerusalem.

2 Vanity of vanities, saith the Preacher, vanity of vanities; all is vanity.

3 What profit hath a man of all his labour which he taketh under the sun?

4 One generation passeth away, and another generation cometh: but the earth abideth for ever.

5 The sun also ariseth, and the sun goeth down, and hasteth to his place where he arose.

6 The wind goeth toward the south, and turneth about unto the north; it whirleth about continually, and the wind returneth again according to his circuits.

7 All the rivers run into the sea; yet the sea is not full; unto the place from whence the rivers come, thither they return again.

8 All things are full of labour; man cannot utter it: the eye is not satisfied with seeing, nor the ear filled with hearing.

9 The thing that hath been, it is that which shall be; and that which is done is that which shall be done: and there is no new thing under the sun.

10 Is there any thing whereof it may be said, See, this is new? it hath been already of old time, which was before us.

In 1959 Pete Seeger wrote the song Turn! Turn! Turn! based on Ecclesiastes 3:1-8. It became wildly popular in 1965 when the Byrds released their version of the song. Pete Seeger chose verses that reflect the nature of time, and the cyclical seasons of life.

Probably one of the worst and most prevalent aspects of social media, is the deception. People can pretend to be someone else. They can steal the identities and photographs belonging to other people, and use it to pose as romance scammers, or to lure investors into a con.

Images can be photoshopped to make it appear they are in a different location. They can photoshop bank statements, passports, driver’s licenses, logos, cheques, and whatever else you can think of.

With the rise and sophistication of AI and Chat GPT, the deception only gets more convoluted and difficult to detect.

However, just as it says in the book of Ecclesiastes, vanity is vanity. There is nothing new about it. The same goes for deception. It too, goes back to the beginning of time.

I think the essence of what social media is inadvertently telling us – is that nothing is hidden. The kiss-cam exposure of the CEO, and HR director’s affair during a Coldplay concert is an example of how people can be exposed in a matter of seconds.

For those who are Christians, we know from many verses in the bible, that nothing is hidden from God. Truth will always rise to the surface, one way or another. God is light, and light shines on darkness. God sees and knows everything.

Hebrews 4:12 For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.

1 Samuel 16:7 But the LORD said unto Samuel, Look not on his countenance, or on the height of his stature; because I have refused him: for the LORD seeth not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the LORD looketh on the heart.

Psalms 44:21 Shall not God search this out? for he knoweth the secrets of the heart.

Proverbs 27:19 As in water face answereth to face, so the heart of man to man.

Many of us are familiar with the ancient story of Narcissus dying while staring at his own reflection in a pond. The origin of this fable is from Ovid and Pausanias. Both were ancient world writers, but with a different background and focus.

Ovid was a Roman poet known for works with a focus on love and transformation. His most famous work was Metamorphoses.

Pausanias on the other hand, leaned more toward non-fiction, and gave a detailed account of ancient Greece. He wrote travel guides in ten books, describing the art, culture, architecture, religious practices, mythology, history, landscape, and topography of Greece. 

In both versions of Narcissus, the storyline is that he became so enamoured with his own reflection in the water, he neglected to take care of himself. He was so besotted with his own image, he had no concern, or awareness of anything around him. He was unable to eat or sleep. He took his final dying breath, while staring longingly at his own reflection in the water.

Doesn’t this ancient story have some correlation with what happens to people who become so infatuated with their own image, that they die in the pursuit of perfecting themselves? The perfect image. The perfect face. The perfect body. And finally, the ultimate capture of those elements in action. 

Beauty and perfection seems within reach, especially in our youth. Then there is the quest to hold onto youth, without ever showing signs of aging. It is a senseless struggle. 

The illusion is reinforced, because the image of near perfection (combined with cognitive bias) is reflected back at people – yet it is intangible. Perfection is not achievable. Just look at the people who get one plastic surgery after another. It gets worse, not better. 

Going back to what it says in the bible, we would be wise to be humble. In fact repentance humbles us because it shows us our faults, and we feel genuine remorse, as well as the desire to change. Humility puts us on the path to redemption, as opposed to the godless, and all encompassing love of our own image or reflection in a mirror, or a pond, or a camera. Vanity is nothing new in spite of social media.

The benefits of humility over vanity are written about extensively throughout the bible. Some examples:

James 4:6 But he giveth more grace. Wherefore he saith, God resisteth the proud, but giveth grace unto the humble.

Luke 14:11 For whosoever exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted.

Ephesians 2:8-9

8 For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:

9 Not of works, lest any man should boast.

Proverbs 16:18-19 

18 Pride goeth before destruction, and an haughty spirit before a fall.

19 Better it is to be of an humble spirit with the lowly, than to divide the spoil with the proud.

In conclusion, it seems pretty clear – we are inclined toward vanity for personal gain, but paradoxically our own vanity can harm us. 

Sometimes people who are gifted in looks or intellect, are mercilessly bullied, or exploited by wolves in sheep’s clothing.

It seems to be most unfair when people are persecuted for what should be a benefit, not a curse. This is an especially immoral type of attack, because the target cannot help being who they are. Nor is it their fault, if they happened to be born with certain gifts. It’s like kicking the dog because it is not a cat. Or perhaps, because it is better looking, or smarter than your dog. There is no shortage of abuse in this world. 

Another drawback facing social media influencers is that they are open targets for criticism, and online abuse. It is often because of the jealousy of other people. Once the social media influencers put themselves out there, in addition to the likes, subscribers, adoration and fame, they also face the flip side of that kind of attention, and get negativity, and insults as well. It creates a world of polarizations that would be difficult to navigate for most people. 

For those who are sensitive, or unable to separate their authentic self, from a well-crafted public persona, they are very susceptible to mental health issues. Being an influencer often has a damaging effect on self-esteem. Tragically, a significant percentage of influencers die by suicide. 

Another often overlooked ethical grey zone of social media, is when people film and monetize children’s lives, when they are too young to give consent. It is one thing to show family photos, weddings etc. But it becomes questionable, when every facet of a child’s daily life is posted online. In the future, the child might resent the invasion of privacy, or feel like they were exploited. 

In addition, all people should be mindful of the fact there are many online child sexual predators. Even though photos or videos posted are not intended to be the focus of online predators, parents have to be very careful, when it comes to protecting their children. 

It is also worthy of consideration to question how much a child might be affected by constantly being photographed, or portrayed as being cute and adorable. Most of them are cute and adorable, but they are still autonomous, and unique human beings, who are going through multiple developmental stages. 

Some people go so far as to take pictures of children having falls or accidents, as if it is hilariously funny. There was a joke circulating on Tik Tok for awhile, where the parent would crack an egg on a child’s head. In fact, there are many copycat type stunts that circulate online. Some of them are borderline assaultive, like cracking an egg on a child’s head. In every case I watched of adults using the egg cracking joke, the child looked very shocked, unhappy, and offended. That means it is not funny. 

Other social media stunts are downright dangerous. Everything from eating contests, to planing, to sucking boiling water through a straw, have led to tragic deaths. 

We can see how things are easily taken too far. People will also film pit bulls licking newborns, and all kinds of pet related, close encounters with very small children. Not every pet can be trusted with an infant. Infants, and young children should never be used in risk taking encounters of any kind, for social media. 

Another fairly innocent social media trend occurred recently, showing pregnant women who were full term, dancing prior to going into labour. If the mom is healthy and feels like dancing, good for her. Social media has millions of dancing videos of all kinds, so why not? 

However this craze was soon tainted by an attention seeking, pretend pregnant dancer. Meghan Markle gravitated toward this trend, and did a fake version of the pregnancy dance, with what looked like a pillow under her dress.

One thing most moms, as well as LDR nurses, midwives, and doctors know – is that the full term uterus does not move like a pillow. Therefore, the deceptive aspect of Meghan Markle’s  pregnant dance, became another faux pas. She seems to be the queen of gaucherie. 

All of the social media platforms love click bait, therefore when it comes to certain practices, anything goes. Personally, I think there should be a set of ethical guidelines surrounding the filming, and posting of vulnerable people online, who are unable to give consent.

Some people are posting the care of, along with the everyday life and struggles, of a family member with dementia. Some of the posts are very personal. Some are comical. Others are rather ambiguous. 

One person may view such exposure as being poignant and touching. Another may see it as being educational. And someone else may view it as being a violation of confidentiality surrounding health matters. Others may think it is blatantly exploitive.

But the big question is – how does it affect the person who is being filmed? Does it align with their values, or any discussions they may have had about it when they had better cognition? After all, the person is being filmed, often in embarrassing circumstances, without realizing it.

Nor are they aware of the number of viewers, how widespread it is, or the reasons for it. Maybe they do not want to be seen by the outside world, let alone filmed in such a state. Maybe they have an ex, or certain people who they do not want to share any part of their life with. Maintaining dignity while aging, especially for those going through dementia, is very important to most people. 

We have to keep in mind that the average person who is over 70 years old, was not raised with social media, or the Internet. They may not have even considered there was a potential for being filmed throughout phases of dementia. It is something most people don’t even have a conversation about, while they are still making their own decisions. 

Similar to children being the focus of certain social media channels, I have often wondered about the filming of people with dementia, in order to show the journey, or the challenges associated with their care. Once again, the person is not in a position to consent. They are vulnerable, and could be subjected to mockery, or the sympathy from strangers who they do not know, or wish to know. Therefore it stands to reason the person with dementia does not want to open up their lives, and personal struggles to online strangers. 

We can only speak for ourselves on what we would or would not want, and I can say for sure that I would not want to be filmed in every day life at any stage of my life. Not because I have anything to hide, but because I really value, and want to protect my privacy. 

If social media is used in moderation for communication, mutual interests, education, or for entertainment, it can be a good thing. But if it is used for deception, vanity, or the exploitation of vulnerable people, it can be destructive. 

Finally, to point out a minor social media irritant, is when content creators drag out the most simplistic information as long as possible. For example, they might have a title like “Five Foods You Should Never Eat Before Going To Bed” or “Ten Mistakes Gardener’s Make Planting Potatoes” 

Isn’t it annoying when they use long-winded fillers before they actually tell you anything? Wordy, bloated, whitewashed stuffing, padding a very simple message, to make it as long and drawn out as possible.

Obviously they are trying to stretch a one minute video into fifteen minutes. They should concentrate on more informative content, not just beating around the potato bush, until you lose interest. 

Knowledge is increasing at an accelerated rate, with some suggesting it doubles every twelve hours, in this modern era. Therefore, I think some of those content creators – should be a little quicker to get to the point.

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The Australian Mushroom Posionings ~ Guilty Verdict

The verdict is in on the mean and mealy mushroom saga. Erin Patterson’s claims of cancer proved to be false – she used this as a ruse to get the victims to attend the lunch. She tried to guilt trip her ex into attending the fatal lunch, but he declined the invitation, and dodged the mushroom bullet.

It is almost inconceivable that a person would invite family members to a lunch laced with a deadly poison, and then spend a pleasant three hours visiting, and chatting about the future. She knew she had just ended their future.

One can’t help but wonder if she was relishing the knowledge of their fate, as she chatted about her fake cancer diagnosis, and plans for her future, which she knew was secure. At least she thought it was secure, although she might not have realized how secure it would be in a jail cell. 

She was whining about her health, and imaginary conditions, while simultaneously setting them up for one of the worst kinds of death imaginable. The degree of deception gave her a supreme power, and control over her victims, which was likely part of the motive. In fact, cooking the meal was like a death ritual, conducting the termination with a recipe backed by power and precision. Her cunning calculations were known only to her, rife with arrogance, and supremacy. Her life mattered, and she was about to show them, their lives did not matter. 

In her twisted mind, was it like “Ha! I sure fixed you.” Or like the words written on her kitchen wall, “RIP grandma, and Die by my sword.” She claimed her children wrote all those macabre messages on the wall, but it would seem more likely she was the one who was behind it. A house painter was so alarmed by the doodling, he pulled out his phone, and photographed the cryptic messages, along with drawings of tombstones. It is so spooky, no wonder she was referred to as a witch. 

Her ex had reason to believe she had attempted to poison him in the past, leading to an extended stay in hospital and lengthy recovery. Plus, it appears she wanted to reunite, or at the very least, keep him under her control. He wanted no part of it.

Incredibly, there were at least three other occasions where she is accused of attempting to poison her ex. On at least one of those times, he was hospitalized, and placed in an induced coma for a prolonged period of time. He nearly died.

She also tried to convince the jury that she too had been sick following the meal. But she had discharged herself from the hospital against medical advice, and did not bother bringing her children in for evaluation, even though she said she had given them the leftovers. She obviously spared herself and her children, knowing full well what was in the deadly lunch.

She cooked up separate dishes, and used a different coloured plate to make sure she did not take the poisoned dish. I have never made beef wellington, but apparently it takes many hours to prepare.

All of those hours of preparation, to include the recipe, the shopping, the foraging for death cap mushrooms, dehydrating them, all the research she did, and the lies she told – are indicative of premeditation.

She had all kinds of time and opportunity to think about what she was doing, and abandon the plot. She knew what the outcome would be. Yet she did not manage to think it through, as to how she was going to explain why she came away unscathed. She seemed to think some crocodile tears, and proclamations of innocence, would chase away all the enquiries. 

During the trial, she claimed to have eaten a whole cake, and then forced herself to throw up afterward. This too was likely a lie, contrived after the fact to try and explain why she was not poisoned. But if the meal was served at 12:30 and the guests left at 3:30, that left plenty of time for her system to absorb poison, if she was actually poisoned. Apparently it takes twenty minutes to four hours for the toxins to be absorbed, with symptoms of poisoning occurring hours later. There is no evidence that the poison can be extracted or eliminated once it is absorbed.

There are reports she had a career as an air traffic controller, which is hard to believe. She was in fact an air traffic controller for a short period of time before she was married. Her maiden name is Scutter, and she worked as an air traffic controller from Feb 12th, 2001 until November 28th 2002. Less than a year, is not much of a career, indicating that she was not capable of doing the job long term, for whatever reasons. She was described as being short tempered, deceptive and abrasive.

Overall, once she got married, she was a stay at home mom, with some stints of work as an accountant, and editor.

Although she wailed loudly about how much she loved her in-laws, and never meant them any harm, her FB messages told a different story. About eight months before the lunch, she is quoted as saying “I’m sick of this shit and I want nothing to do with them.” She added a few more expletives, which showed her true colours.

She also described her husband as being a deadbeat dad, who was not providing for the family. She tried to involve the parents to help resolve their issues. They did not want to get involved, which angered her even more.

She wrote: “I thought his parents would want him to do the right thing but it seems their concern about not wanting to feel uncomfortable and not wanting to get involved in their son’s personal matters are overriding that, so ef****em.”

Does that sound like she had no issues with them, like she so adamantly claimed right after the poisonings? Yet they were unaware of her simmering rage toward them, and they had genuine good will toward her.

Apparently in addition to being an avid mushroom forager, she was also a true crime buff. What I do not understand is – how did she expect to get away with it?

She used a false claim of having cancer to lure them over. Surely she must have known it could be easily disproven during a murder investigation. When she talked to the media right after it happened, she was extremely evasive about the actual lunch. Did she really expect to poison a group of people without anyone questioning how it came about, and why she was still alive?

She said she got the mushrooms at an Asian grocery store. Yet no one else in the area was poisoned. She said she did not have a food dehydrator, when it was obvious she did. She denied getting rid of it after the deadly lunch, but police were able to retrieve video evidence of her disposing of it.

In fact, she got caught in so many lies, she lost all credibility. She had three phones, and remotely reset one of them after it was taken into police evidence. She immediately launches into the “poor me, victim role”.

She had financial security. She had two healthy children. She had family members, a church community, and hobbies. Yet, in spite of all the blessings in her life, she spent months plotting to murder five people?

As the trial progresses, there are some news titles saying it was a murder without a motive. The motive seems quite clear, and is as old as the hills. She murdered out of revenge, over money, and a loss of control. The most controlling people, are also the most likely to lose control.

She was angry. She was resentful. She had loaned her husband’s family money, yet it did not bring him back to her. She expressed anger, because she had not been invited to a birthday party. She believed there was intentional distancing from her. However, clearly she was not being shunned. The people she targeted were not the least bit cult-like, nor did they show any evidence of ill will toward her. They graciously accepted the invitation, and showed genuine concern for her. 

It is the hallmark of cults to shun and punish people, especially if the person being shunned is demonstrating a willingness to forgive, let go, apologize for their role in any conflict, and seek remedies acceptable to both parties. True Christians are willing to forgive, and do not shun family members. Healing may take time. Rejection and shunning causes deep wounds only God can heal, or deal with. Certain cults are notorious for punishing people in such a manner, especially those they cannot control. 

Erin Patterson was being treated in a respectful, loving Christian manner, in spite of her oddities,  especially given the suspicion of prior attempts to poison her ex. Simon’s parents were demonstrating wisdom, by refusing to interfere in the relationship problems between Erin and her ex. Erin’s expectation that they were going to dictate, or give orders to their adult son, to suit her whims, was a childish and unreasonable expectation. Every Christian wedding we ever attend, we hear the preacher read the verses from Mathew 19:5-6

5 And said, For this cause shall a man leave father and mother, and shall cleave to his wife: and they twain shall be one flesh?

6 Wherefore they are no more twain, but one flesh. What therefore God hath joined together, let not man put asunder.

If a couple separates or divorces, it is between them and their lawyers. No one can force a person to stay married to someone they do not want to be with, or do not feel safe with. 

Erin then tried the sympathy route, over her own fabricated health concerns. Given that she had allegedly tried to poison her husband more than once, I don’t understand why the in-laws would accept a meal she had cooked. Poisoning was her MO.

Some people have surmised she was just trying to make them really ill, not kill them. They believe the deaths might have been the outcome, because the people were elderly. Although we have no way of knowing her thought processes, her victims were 66 and 70 years old. They were healthy, functional, active people.

In fact, even after his near death ordeal, Ian Wilkinson is reported to have returned to pastoring his church. He also attended the trial each day. That in itself is indicative of a significant amount of stamina. Many people half his age could not carry on as well as he has, in addition to grieving the loss of his wife. Plus, how does such an opinion explain that Erin managed to put her ex into a coma for sixteen days, teetering near death, when he was in his 40’s? I think the jury got it right. It was not attempted murder, it was murder. 

As the jury got closer to deliberating, I couldn’t help but thinking, “how can they put themselves in her shoes?” Imagine all the shopping for food, the actual food prep, dehydrating death cap mushrooms, and calculating the lethal doses. She also had to make two separate dishes, so she had a serving for herself that was not contaminated.

It took a significant amount of time to make the dish. Every single thing she did, was a premeditated and deliberate act. It is so far beyond what a reasonable person would do, who could possibly understand the pathology of her psyche? A person who poisons as a method of murder, is an especially convoluted character, who somehow manages to cultivate insane cruelty through the use of supreme deception. 

To top it off, in the months before the murders, she was avidly hunting for death cap mushrooms. This was proven according to apps on her phone about where they had been sighted, combined with phone records of her going to those locations. She was busy plotting a very serious crime. 

In addition, there were Internet searches about the effects of death cap mushroom poisoning. It sounds like she planned the murders months in advance, which is chilling. How can any person go about a normal day, when they have a mass murder on their mind? Each day harbours thoughts of carrying out a sneaky, and cruel crime, targeting innocent people within her own circle. 

She fully intended to kill the father, and grandparents of her own children. What would she have done to her children once they got older, and perhaps rebelled against her, or made her angry? What might she have schemed up to do to her ex, to punish him for his transgressions? 

The main issue seemed to be the separation from her husband, and his refusal to get back with her. How many people go through divorce, or separation? In Canada 40-50% of marriages end in divorce. In Australia it is similar, with 44% ending in divorce. It is a good thing, the majority of them do not have such sinister reactions to a split.

She inherited around two million dollars when her mother and grandmother died. She lived in a large, very nice five bedroom home, and did not have to work. Yet she spent her time plotting murder.

Killing people by poisoning has to be one of the most evil plots known to humans. It is a betrayal of trust like none other. There is no overt violence, but rather a premeditated concoction, served up on a platter of deceit. 

Following the poisoning, it is a long and tortuous death. The victim does not bleed out, or die like they would, if it had been a shooting or a stabbing. People are understandably horrified by all the blood at a crime scene. But the internal carnage done by poisoning, is worse in many ways. 

Poisoning puts a person through agonizing hours, and sometimes days, of excruciating abdominal pain, cramping, diarrhea, and vomiting. To make matters worse, they died with the knowledge they had been intentionally duped and poisoned. At least one of the people who died, talked about the different coloured plate Erin had used for her own serving. As the victim who mentioned this was dying, she was clearly suspicious, and had to deal with the psychological trauma of the betrayal.

The victims also had the burden of worry for their spouses, and others who were at the lunch, knowing they were going through the same ordeal. Then one by one, all of the organs shut down, and they were put into an induced coma in ICU. It is heinous beyond description. 

Erin Patterson knew exactly what she was doing, and what would happen to them. She planned it for weeks, and likely months in advance. Why? Because she was not invited to a birthday party? 

Yet she was active in their church, pretending to be a Christian. Anyone of them could have been her next victim. If she was so enraged toward such obviously innocent people who were part of her family, who else might she have targeted? 

This is another of many examples, like Lucy Letby, and Lindsay Clancy, where these women had wonderful lives, with all kinds of support, a loving family, and beautiful homes. Yet they became obsessed with murdering the innocent. 

Erin Patterson is one of the dumbest criminals I have ever followed in true crime. No one ever gets away with murder, but this was especially obvious. Regarding her defence team, I wonder who thought it was a good idea to put her on the stand to testify? How can a person who told so many lies not get tripped up in those lies? 

There are multiple reports describing her as being smart, and some go so far as to claim she is a genius. What a stretch. Calculating and wicked, is not the same as being smart. It is the outcome of harbouring bitter resentments, with no concern for anyone but herself.

She spent all that time, months in advance plotting the crime, and yet she did not realize the first question would be, “Why was she still alive?” Just claiming to have been sick too, doesn’t cut it when there is no sign of it.

What about the dehydrator? Her husband knew she had one. As it turns out, she did dehydrate death cap mushrooms in her dehydrator. Did it not occur to her that her house would be searched? She got rid of the dehydrator after the victims were already deathly ill, and her husband point blank asked her if she used it to poison them. She did not think that one through either.

As a supposed true crime buff, why didn’t she realize the phone evidence would be critical? Or the Internet searches looking for death cap mushrooms, and how to calculate lethal doses? Do people really think she is brilliant because she knew how to reset a phone. A ten year old can figure out how to do that.

Why would anyone think she was brilliant? The doctor said he knew immediately that she was guilty. When I saw her first media interview, I thought the same thing. She did not fool anyone. You could call her cunning, but definitely not smart. 

Throughout all of the premeditation, she was standing in the kitchen of her beautiful five bedroom home, set on a lovely property in rural Australia. She had no financial worries. Her primary health concern was her weight, which is something she could have done something about. 

She was active in the lives of her children. Did it cross her mind that she was putting life as she knew it in jeopardy? If she would have thought it through to an in-depth investigation, as any intelligent person would expect there to be, she would have concluded she could lose it all.

She lost all facets of her rich and cushy life, with freedom to travel, to entertain, and to pursue any goals she wanted to. In reality – she self-destructed, albeit in a different manner than what she did to the victims. She poisoned her own psyche, her own place in society, the lives of her children, her beautiful home, and the community who had trusted her, and given her the benefit of the doubt.  

It appears she was fixated on one thing. Revenge. The two most repeated comments about her that do not make sense are 1. She is is smart 2. There was no motive. She might have been educated, but there are many educated people who are not that smart. 

No she is not smart, and yes there was a motive. Just because no normal person would do such a thing, does not mean there is a lack of motive. Revenge is a common motive. Although what she did was crazy, she was not insane.

She was so focused on revenge, self preservation was not in the equation, other than the fact she would live and they would die. It sounds very primitive, as opposed to being a plot carried out by someone with a higher intellect. 

She could have admitted to foraging right at the onset, if she wanted to set up an excuse. Along with the cancer diagnosis, she could have pretended to be too unwell to eat during the lunch. Then later, she could have claimed she must have made the mistake of picking death cap mushrooms while out foraging for edible mushrooms. More sophisticated scheming might have left some room for reasonable doubt. 

It was dumb to panic, and immediately run out to get rid of the dehydrator. It was dumb to say she bought the mushrooms at Woolworths, and an Asian grocery store. It was dumb to repeatedly lie. It was dumb to make the nasty FB posts about her supposed beloved in-laws. How could she have thought none of that evidence would come to light? After all, those digital bread crumbs are solid evidence, to include dates, time, and context. 

Why would she wail in front of media cameras right after it happened, claiming she loved them, and they did her no harm? Boo hoo hoo. Why would she have felt the need to defend herself from accusations of poisoning them on purpose, right off the bat? It made her look guilty, not innocent. 

The media was not asking her whether she murdered them. They were asking about the lunch, a question Patterson skirted around like a hen on a hot griddle. 

It still does not explain all the Internet searches, resetting phones, going to locations where they were sighted etc. If there had been a plausible explanation as to how and why she survived, when all the guests got lethal doses of death cap mushrooms, it would have given her a slim chance of getting away with it. However, the way she went about the entire sequence of events, was stupid and irrational, even though it was a devious plot. 

Some say that if all the guests would have died, her cancer ruse would not have been known. Yes it would have, because there were texts to one of the women victims about the cancer. Her ex knew about those false claims as well. So, the evidence would have shown she used it as a ruse whether or not there was a survivor. But the different coloured plates may not have been know without a surviving witness. 

One of today’s reports on the case, said she did not look like a murderer. What does a murderer look like? Some murderers look like innocent little darlings. Lucy Letby and Erin Caffey both portrayed youthful, wide eyed, sweet purity in the image they portrayed – yet they too were mass killers.

Erin Patterson does not exactly look sweet and innocent, not that it means anything. But her looks and demeanour would not likely gain sympathy from anyone, let alone jurors. It was especially so, given the many lies she told, as well as her initial theatrics in front of the news media.

It was obvious she was faking her grief and innocence. She quickly became flustered and angry when they pressed her for answers about the actual lunch. If she was innocent, she would have been more than willing to go over the details of the lunch. 

Although there are some legitimate privacy concerns in this digital age, over the use of cell phones, and surveillance cameras – they do provide solid evidence when it comes to convicting criminals. The digital footprint was crucial in helping to get guilty verdicts on Alex Murdaugh, and Brian Kohberger. 

When you factor in the DNA evidence, to include the shedding of skin cells when something is touched, along  with the digital footprint, murder is not the least bit fool proof. Even with cold cases, they are often solved many years later using DNA, and genetic DNA.

In the case of the Idaho college student murders, the police went to Kohberger’s parents home, and confiscated a Q-tip from the trash. They used that Q-tip to link it to the DNA on the knife sheath found at the crime scene. The DNA on the Q-tip showed it was Brian Kohberger’s father’s DNA. One can only imagine how Kohberger’s parents feel, and how they can possibly deal with the magnitude of his crime. 

But even more than justice based on the diligent work of police, and prosecutors, God knows when murder is committed, no matter how the person goes about it, or whether or not they are caught. 

The very first murder was when Cain killed his brother Abel. God immediately knew, which is a reminder to all people that justice will eventually be served. 

It is hard to imagine how the children of Erin Patterson are processing this horrific crime. I believe they were nine and fourteen years old at the time of the crime. She was described as a doting mother, so they must have conflicting feelings. They were also subject to her many lies and manipulations, especially toward their father. 

She planned to go through nursing and become a midwife. I find that hard to even imagine. She is fifty years old, so by the time she graduated she would have been just a few years away from retirement. Plus the job of nursing is physically taxing and exhausting with all the shift work, and fast paced busy environment to cope with. It sounds like it was just a pipe dream to try and boost her fragile self esteem. 

The psychology behind such a crime may never be understood. Some people cannot withstand rejection, without cultivating a deep rage. They cannot accept God’s grace, or instructions to persevere and do good. They cannot repent and turn away from sinful plotting and scheming. They are self destructing, and become bound and determined to take others with them. 

Since she will likely spend the rest of her life in jail, she will never be part of life as she once knew it. She will not cook, or be with her family for any holidays. She will not forage for mushrooms. She will not live in a five bedroom beautiful home.

She will always be known as the notorious mushroom killer, a mass murderer, and pathological liar. More than likely, there will be numerous books and movies about the case. When the media pursued her, she was enraged because they made her look like a wicked witch. They did not make her look that way – she did. They were simply chasing her down for answers. 

It will be interesting to see if she ever admits guilt in the coming years. No doubt there will be one appeal after another. 

Meanwhile all of the victims in this case, will hopefully begin the long journey toward healing, and forgiveness. Thank God one of the victims Ian Wilkinson survived to give his testimony.

His leadership as both a victim, and a pastor, will be invaluable to the small community as they try to move past this horrible crime. Even though he has become physically stronger, he still must deal with the grief, the loss of his spouse, and the depth of the betrayal.

No doubt he will develop a profound discernment, when it comes to all those in his church and community.  Surely his worldview has changed dramatically, but with God’s help he will be a blessing to many. He sat through the entire trial and testimony. 

All those who followed this trial will pray for Ian, and his church. Every crime has many victims. Every church has a percentage of chameleons.

It is a sad fact to know how many avid churchgoers will readily commit crimes. Often they believe they will be forgiven immediately. There are some who believe they can never lose their salvation no matter what they do, and once saved, all sins, including future sins are forgiven.

Some of them believe they can hide their crimes, and their motives. Others go to church, but are not Christians at all. The bible tells us we will know them by their fruits. 

I don’t really know how God will judge people, and what limits are placed upon His grace. But I do know that He knows what is in our hearts. No one can fool God. Thankfully, this woman did not fool a jury either. 

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Betty Broderick ~ An Example Of A Steadfast Refusal To Repent

In the 1990’s, the Betty Broderick story gained International attention surrounding the dangers of affairs, and the fury of a woman scorned.

Betty Bisceglia married Daniel Broderick in 1969, and together they promptly had four children. She got pregnant immediately after getting married, as was the tradition for Catholic families in the 1960’s. If the plan was for her to put him through law school, one wonders why they did not wait a few years before having children. 

But as it is with all media sensationalism, and the desire to create a certain feminist portrayal, the woman scorned was seen as having been mistreated much more so, if she put her husband through school. 

Does it mean without her, he would not have achieved what he did achieve? If you look at the timelines, he was already well on his way to reaching his goal before he got married. No doubt having a family, would have motivated him more to succeed, and provide for them. Her support, and various contributions, would have been important as well. After all, a marriage is a partnership. 

People get married for many reasons, including financial reasons, as marriage in itself is a financial partnership. Rich or poor, they embark on it together. Millions of women work in order to support a family. Both parents are expected to do what they can, to provide for their family, and contribute to the success of the partnership. Married people tend to fare much better financially than single people do. 

In the post sixties era of rising feminism, there was a slant, and in some ways it was a bias, casting more expectations of being cared for like the proverbial princess, while simultaneously having powerful careers, and equal freedoms. The polarization of roles, from having babies and being the perfect wife, to somehow being the provider, even though it was short lived – backfired on Betty and Dan. 

It was all a fairy tale, a dream come true for Betty. She was the third of six children in a Catholic family. Her father had a successful business, and the family was well provided for. Like many young girls in the 1960’s, a lavish wedding, followed by a house full of children, was the expectation for the continuation of a charmed existence.

She met her future husband Dan when she was just seventeen, and he was twenty-one. At the time, he was going to Cornell University, and had already completed a few years University toward a degree in medicine. They dated for four years during which time he continued his studies, and completed his degree in medicine.

Dan Broderick was also from a large Catholic family, with nine children, and he was very ambitious. After completing medical school, he decided to get a law degree, so he could combine the two disciplines and work on medical malpractice cases.

There has been huge publicity, and fanfare surrounding this case. Most of the publicity describes how much Betty sacrificed to put her husband through school. And no doubt, like most young couples, they must have worked hard, and made sacrifices. She sold Tupperware, and Avon, and did some sporadic work in early childhood teaching.

However the claims of her working like a fiend, to put her husband through law school, seems over rated. During that time frame, she was pregnant, and had small children to care for. Given her personality, and self-absorbed immaturity, it is unlikely she was the saint she portrayed herself to be.

Although she was never diagnosed with a specific mental illness, she was diagnosed and described as having narcissistic and borderline personality disorders. That helps to explain why she has not changed. Personality disorders are part of the person’s makeup since birth, and are not treatable.

Yet her husband was described as narcissistic as well, so perhaps the fatal outcome, is related to the union of two very difficult personalities.

Setting all the Hollywood hoopla aside, the focus on her working for years to put him through school does seem to have elements of exaggeration. They got married in 1969, and had two children immediately after getting married. He started working as a malpractice lawyer in the early 1970’s, and soon after, they bought their first home. It was also reported that he took out a loan to complete his law degree.

Admittedly he had faults, but it does not seem like he was the type to spend years being supported by his wife. Perhaps if she had a solid career, and worked for years in her chosen field to support him and the family, there would be more credibility to the story of putting him through University. Keep in mind, by the time they got married, he had already been in University seven or eight years.

In spite of all Betty’s incessant whining about working (like most of us have to do), in reality, she only worked outside the home at the most, a handful of years. She was in her mid-forties when she shot her husband and his wife. Up until that point, she had not established a career path of any sort. Taking care of four kids, and a house is not to be downplayed, as it is a lot of work, with value for the entire family.

For stay at home moms, it also helps tremendously to have everything paid for, nothing lacking, maid service, new cars, and a beautiful home. But clearly, in addition to hard work, it takes sincerity, honesty, faithfulness, and respect – or it all becomes chaff in the wind.

It appears Betty had financial security within three years of getting married. All of this dove tailed perfectly with her image of a successful and happy family. As it is with all marriages involving secretive affairs, the illusion of a happy marriage is eventually shattered.

Since 1989, television dramas, interviews on Oprah, and hundreds of newspaper articles about the case, each gave a particular slant. Many of them supported Betty’s reactions to a failed marriage, by claiming her husband was a cruel, and ruthless narcissist. They blamed the victim.

There is not much information about Dan Broderick, other than the fact he was very successful, to the point he was making around two million dollars a year. In today’s world, it would be closer to eight million a year. At the time of his death, he was just 45 years old, with at least another twenty years to work. 

If Betty would have played her cards with the least bit of strategy, or refinement, she and the children, were set for life. Unfortunately, she was not playing with a full deck. The trauma and emotional scars will be embedded into the lives of the Broderick children for the rest of their lives, overshadowing all the privilege they once had. In fact, the trauma is likely to go on for several generations. 

It also sounds like Dan Broderick had a roving eye very soon after their marriage, as he was seldom home, and spent a significant amount of time socializing after work. Once he became involved with his young mistress, he hired her as a personal assistant. This was a turning point, and Betty knew it. 

On the afternoon of his birthday, Betty showed up at his office with wine, and gifts. She saw an empty bottle of champagne on his desk, and was told by a nervous receptionist that he had not returned from lunch. Apparently Dan and Linda did not return to the office at all that day. Betty wandered around, and went into Linda’s office. She was aghast to see a picture of Dan when he was much younger, displayed on her wall. 

Illusion is like a vapour, without substance. It can quickly be stirred up into a whirlwind, with nowhere to go. In Betty’s case, the tempest of her wrath, twisted from a dust devil, into a full blown tornado.

Her pipe dream had morphed into an irony of terms, an ignis fatuus, a will-o-the-wisp, a steely song and dance, with deception and self-deception. 

In reality, within ten years or less, the cracks in the marriage began to show. In a couple of the interviews, Betty hinted she knew he might be having affairs, but as long as the marriage stayed intact, she was willing to look the other way. Even though he was accused of being image conscious, she was no different.

What seemed to matter the most to her, was to keep the fantasy intact. There was no shifting the paradigms, of something so elusive as true love, because she could not grasp it, or hold onto it. She had a massive hole in her butterfly net. Since she was unable to patch, or mend the tear, she just kept chasing those butterflies with a vengeance. 

We have to keep in mind that her husband ultimately did not have a chance to defend himself, and her descriptions of him could be fabricated. She claimed he was emotionally abusive and cruel, calling her stupid and fat. There were no signs of physical violence toward her, but without a doubt, she became increasingly disturbed and angry as the relationship disintegrated. She was powerless to do anything about it.

The claims he used his knowledge of the legal system, to abuse power over her, could be true. As the bitter break-up progressed, he used the law and legal system against her, and she used erratic, violent, and profane conduct toward him.

During the divorce, and monetary battles, the children were thrust into the middle of it all. She claimed how unfairly he took custody of the children, however she dropped them off on his doorstep, and left profane messages on the answering machine telling him he could “have them”.

The marriage lasted from 1969 – 1989. But by the early eighties, it was in a free fall, and he moved out of the house. Betty found out about the relationship he was having with his much younger assistant, or at least it was confirmed beyond a doubt by then.

Of all things, the affair with a much younger woman, was the incendiary element that sparked her out of control rage. There was no quenching the fire of fury that burned within her.

She was on the rampage from then on. She vandalized his house several times, put all of his designer suits in a pile and burned them in the yard, and smeared cake all over his bedroom, and contents of his closet. The list of her childish antics, and property damage is a long list.

After he moved in with his mistress, she broke into their house at Christmas time, and opened all of Linda’s presents and trashed them, along with trashing all the Christmas decor. They were away on a brief trip, and one can only imagine how they felt when they saw the Christmas carnage. 

At one point she drove her car into their house. Before the divorce was finalized, there were hundreds of attacks on his property, along with multiple death threats. She told several people she was going to shoot and kill them.

There is no disputing the fact her husband was unfaithful. However, he was not the aggressor in any of the violent confrontations. She was the one who repeatedly acted out violently, and in an antisocial, profane, and degrading manner to herself, her ex, his new partner, and to their children.

The evidence was very clear, as there was footage of her being arrested, and so out of control, she had to be physically restrained. There was also evidence of all the property damage she had done, as well as hundreds of profanity laced messages, and threats on his answering machine. 

Initially she was granted $16,000 a month in alimony. Considering this was in the eighties, and she did not have custody of the children, how was that viewed as being so unfair? She was also living in the matrimonial home, and was demanding a one million dollar settlement, in addition to the alimony.

If you translate $16,000 a month alimony to today’s value, it would be $61,260.00 a month.

What if all the stress of her attacks would have caused him to quit working? The fact she was financially dependent on him, was not something he should be bashed over. There are countless women who have cheating husbands, and are lucky if they get child support.

The point is, no amount of money would have satisfied her. It was not all about money, it was also about power, and control. He had control, not only because he had money, but he also had self control.

Her loss of self control made her irrational and defenceless. How can anyone defend what she did? It was not only the murders, but all of her behaviours leading up to the murders. He too, must have been stressed and enraged. During her many interviews, she did not take any responsibility for all the vandalism either. She seemed to believe he deserved it. 

No one deserves what she did. She was completely unhinged. Her reactions to the split were not his fault. She was powerless to keep him, and there was no reconciling the rage within her. She was not going to let another woman take her prize, or shatter her illusion of a perfect marriage.

In a sense, Betty Broderick remained just as immature as when she was a child, dreaming of a fairy tale wedding, and a life to go with it. She was an adult woman, now in her forties, having tantrum after tantrum, because things did not go her way.

Dan married his mistress Linda, on April 9th of 1989. Ironically, the wedding date was in close proximity to the date Betty and Dan had married. Their anniversary was April 12th. So that must have stuck the knife into her tortured psyche even deeper.

When they got married, Linda wanted her husband to wear a bullet proof vest, just in case Betty showed up and opened fire. Perhaps she didn’t fully realize that she was as much of a target as he was, if not more so.

Just a few months later, in November of 1989, Betty managed to find a key in her daughter’s backpack. A few months prior to that, she had purchased a revolver. Given all her erratic, and unstable behaviour, you have to wonder how she was able to do that. But she did.

She used the key to enter their house at 5:30 am when they were both sound asleep, and quietly crept up the stairs, and into their bedroom. The rest is histrionic history. Linda woke up, and called Dan’s name, telling him to call the police. Betty immediately shot Linda in the head and chest, then shot Dan in the chest, as he was reaching for the phone.

She went home, and told her boyfriend she had shot them. She did have a boyfriend, and somehow that was okay, but it did not mean she was the least bit willing to move on. Her boyfriend was startled and aghast. He drove his Porsche to the home of another lawyer who knew Dan, to tell him what he believed had happened.

They tried calling police and ambulance, but did not know the full details of the crime, or if they had been shot for sure, so at first, they were not taken seriously. The pair then made a mad dash to the house, managed to get inside, and found both of them dead.

The first trial ended in a hung jury. After the second trial, she was convicted of two counts of second degree murder, in December of 1991.

Following her conviction, she gave multiple television and newspaper interviews. She adamantly portrayed herself as the victim, and believed they got what they deserved. Seriously? No one deserves to be shot while at home sleeping in their bed.

She claimed she did it to stop them from harassing her, and harming her further. She just wanted the misery they were inflicting on her to stop. Yet, she was the one doing the harassing. How can two sleeping people be a threat to her? But nothing could make her see her own faults. 

What is astounding to me, is how many people sided with Betty, and bought into all the descriptions of her hard work in the early years, as well as his callous cruelty. Even if she did put him through ten or even twenty years of University, it does not justify shooting him for leaving her.

Clearly he did not want to be with her any longer, no matter whose fault it was, or what the reasons were. No one has the answers, when it comes to what happens between two people in a marriage. Sometimes they themselves do not know what caused the breakup. Insight is very valuable, but it may not occur until many years later, if at all. So far, Betty continues to lack even a minuscule amount of insight or remorse, so sadly for her, it may never happen. 

Just as it is with men who kill their partners for leaving them, it appears Betty Broderick had objectified her husband, as a sort of trophy husband. He was her trophy, and no one was going to snatch it away from her, without facing a one woman firing squad. She had declared war on them, and there was only one way to win the war, in the trenches of her own tortured soul. 

Affairs are dangerous, and nasty. People should get out of the marriage before getting into another relationship. But it is a fact of life that millions of marriages fail every single year, due to infidelity.

In speculating what happened between Dan and Betty, after seeing some of her interviews, and immature, closed mindedness toward showing a shred of remorse, perhaps Dan realized he had married an unstable, so-called bimbo.

Betty repeatedly called his mistress a bimbo, but it appears she was projecting what she was. She was the perfect leave it to beaver wife. However, her reactions over many years, created a portrayal of an unhinged, and unintelligent woman. The only thing beaver about it, was her relentless chewing on a malevolent log jam. She was fixated on one trajectory, and would not budge. 

Given her personality, and reactions over a long period of time, her husband probably realized fairly quickly that he had made a big mistake in marrying her. She exhibited a classic example of arrested development. She was intellectually inferior, and did not use any kind of strategy to mitigate her losses. It was all insane and barbaric reactions to a fairly common betrayal. She ignored restraining orders and all court orders.

Eventually her husband set up a system of financial penalties for the various transgressions, ranging from $100-$1000. The profane telephone messages led to a $100 fine. Property crime led to a $500 fine. The more serious transgressions involving the children led to $1000 fine.

To give an idea of how many times she violated the boundaries, she ended up with so many fines, it eroded her alimony into the red. He did get restraining orders on her, so each time she harassed, or contacted them, she was in violation of the restraining order. 

The fines were also seen as his ruthless control, and abuse of power over her. But what else could he do? He had no power over her scatterbrained conduct, and he is the one who paid the ultimate price. He was in his forties, in the prime of his life. His new wife was in her twenties. Who knows if that marriage would have lasted?

All tragedy carries many ifs. If he truly was a womanizer, he might have strayed again. If Betty would have been patient, she might have seen her rival face the same jilted fate. If Betty had handled things differently, she could have lived a rich and free life. If she would have waited a few years, she could have been a star, or a contributor to the script in the 1996 film, the First Wive’s Club. 

The movie depicted three women seeking revenge over being dumped for younger women. However, even though the casting was good, it was a complete flop. It was supposed to be a comedy to address the issue of affairs by middle aged men, and the rejection of their wives, in favour of those younger women. But the movie did not have much panache, or even a punch line, for what was supposed to be a comedy. It ended up with two star reviews. So even then, Betty’s drama would hardly even warrant a single star, in the vast universe of rejection, and heartache. 

She did not handle any part of it with grace or dignity. She had no regard for the trauma and psychological torture she had inflicted on her children. She showed no love for the man she had supposedly once cherished.

Her first parole hearing came up in 2010. She maintained the same harsh attitude toward the victims, and denied wrongdoing. She claimed the “gun just went off”. Yet she hit her targets with deadly precision, following through on multiple threats. By 2010, she had not changed her tune one bit.

Thirty years and more after the crime, by the age of 73, she had appeared before the parole board twice. Each time, she showed no remorse, and remained steadfastly unrepentant.

She was not granted another parole hearing until 2032. By then she will be 84 years old.

How could the tragedy have been averted? If Dan and Linda believed they might need bullet proof vests for their wedding, perhaps their house needed an alarm system.

Alarm systems were not as common in the late eighties, early nineties, as they are now. With four active children coming and going, it might have made alarms more difficult.

However if they had an alarm system turned on at night, it might have saved them. The other thing that might have saved their lives would have been to have a lock and dead bolt on their bedroom door. That way, she would have had to break the door down, or shoot through the door, which would have increased their chance of survival.

Of course hindsight is always easy for the armchair true crime readers. Regardless of what kind of person Dan Broderick was, he did not deserve to die, and she had no right to take her unbridled resentment out on two law abiding citizens, and the father of her children. It was horrific, and without justification of any sort.

If anything, Betty Broderick serves as an example of what anger, wrath, lack of remorse, and a hardened unrepentant heart can do to a person. She does not see herself as she truly is. Her revenge turned her into a monster.

One of the biggest mistakes murder victims make, is to fail to realize the person who is targeting them, will kill them. So many people will say they did not take it seriously, or did not think he/she had the guts, or was capable of carrying out the threats. 

If a person consistently makes threats, and destroys another person’s property, they are showing signs of escalating, lethal violence. Property damage is an indirect way of assaulting, and showing total disregard for the rights of a victim. It is just one step away from an attack on the victim, and it does prove how much she objectified him. He was supposed to be her man, her success story, her image, the proverbial feather in her cap. 

How is that different from a man objectifying a woman, for her beauty, her body, and the image he portrays if he views her as arm candy? If we are to view men and women as equals, we have to realize that men too, can be treated as ornamentation, albeit in a different way. 

The notion that we all mellow with age, is not always true. Some people’s hearts become hardened. Some people hold onto wrath, a desire for revenge, and persistent delusional thinking.

If she does not change, or repent, she will likely die in prison. Even sadder, is that she will have had more than forty years to reflect, and show remorse, repentance, and a change of heart.

For those who condemn the victims, and support what she did, I find it incredible. When a marriage splits up, it takes two to make it happen. It is most unfortunate, and adultery is a common cause. Faithfulness cannot be mandated, or forced. It is a character trait, and in some cases, a person is in so much misery in a marriage, they are seeking a catalyst to end it. 

However, a woman scorned, is no reason to unleash a barrage of hellfire onto a family, anymore than femicide is justified for whatever twisted reasons.

Repentance, self control, emotional management, to include forgiveness – are the only paths to getting over hurt and betrayal. Anger is a very real emotion, and it has to be worked through in non destructive ways. 

Perhaps some of the worst examples of human behaviours stem from the notion that adults with more power, have the right to punish other adults for their misdeeds, or perceived misdeeds.  Perhaps Dan should not have fined Betty for each of her transgressions, but instead might have chosen to leave it to the police, and courts do deal with her. All of his actions exacerbated her indignation, and tipped the balances of power even further. 

The idea of having the authoritative power of punishment over other adults, is immoral. People have free will, and are allowed to set boundaries, or to leave a relationship, if they choose to. Dan Broderick no longer wanted to be with Betty. There was no way she could have forced him to change his mind. There was no way he could have forced her to accept his choice. 

In other situations where there are power imbalances, financial punishment is one thing. But often children, grandchildren, and family roles, are taken away as part of the punishment, and abuse of power.

This is what the bible describes as iniquity, or unfair and corrupt treatment against those who are weaker or poorer. God promises many times throughout the entire bible, this will not go unpunished. Vengeance and judgment belongs to God, not to people. We do have laws, but some things are so devious, they are not distinguishable by the laws. 

There is no excuse for violence or murder. There is also no justification in punishing another adult for the legitimate choices they make. Betty Broderick abused power more than anyone else in the entire saga. It is especially grievous if those abusing power target familial relationships, and use the weaker members (children) as pawns in the conflict. 

Many people lack remorse, and refuse to admit wrongdoing. They carry out their punishments toward others willfully, and without remorse. Like Betty, they seriously believe their victims deserve mistreatment, and punishment. They do so at their own peril. Eventually all injustices will come to light. 

In addition to setting boundaries, people do have the right to exercise their rights using the courts. Sometimes people abuse the process. When it comes to those who are truly cunning, and manipulative, it is a hard act to follow. Things become layered, and increasingly complex, especially as the years go by. 

The most bitter battles revolve around those who have a lot of money. Sometimes excessive wealth is not all it is cracked up to be. It puts blinders on people. Instead of elevating, or edifying the bar of human ethics, and behaviours, it tends to lower the bar, right to the bottom of the barrel. 

As it says in the bible, the root of all evil, is the love of money. It is not money, but rather, the love of money, that leads to evil. When you think about the root of so much evil, it is absolutely mind boggling. 

For those who do see their own wrongdoing, and repent, they no longer walk in darkness. They allow their sinful ways to come under scrutiny. They are willing to show true remorse, and repentance, which leads to a change of heart. Otherwise, their hearts become hardened, and the obvious wrongdoing is obliterated from their own understanding. 

We do make the choice, and we are all told to repent. Betty Broderick is an example of what kind of person the unrepentant person becomes. It is not a pretty sight. 

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True Crime – What Are The Most Common Causes Of Murder?

After listening to, watching, and reading true crime stories over the years, I have drawn some conclusions. It’s not exactly a tried and true research project. But for sure, there are some common denominators.

Sadly, most murder victims are killed by someone they know. The biggest mistake a murder victim makes, is believing the person they are associated with, would not kill them. 

Women who are in domestic violence situations, have been known to get back into a relationship with someone who beat them, and tried to choke them. Some have even gone out to meet the violent offender in a remote location, which just makes it easier for him to get rid of her. 

Among the most high risk scenarios, are the intimate partner violence situations. Both men and women are at risk if there are affairs, impending divorce, custody battles, insurance policies, or assets to fight over.

A woman who is pregnant, and in a relationship where the partner does not want the child, is in a high risk situation. It is even more perilous, if it is a clandestine relationship.

Sometimes women intentionally get pregnant, to try and hold onto a man who is not fully committed. It is a high stakes situation, because she may have an illusion of love, or wishful thinking, that might be clouding her better judgement. 

If she happens to be with someone who is desperate, is married to, or living with someone else, or who does not have much of a moral compass – she could be placing herself, and her unborn child in danger. 

When people who believe they are in a committed relationship become suspicious of an affair, they should be on high alert.

They should also be very wary of million dollar life insurance policies that crop up all of a sudden, and often without a good reason. Some con artists have intentionally married someone, set up a life insurance policy, and then staged an accident three months later. 

Gangster and drug turf murders, is part of the business, and for many, an expected outcome if they don’t get out of it, and make some serious lifestyle changes. 

But to try and assess what happens to ordinary people, living fairly ordinary lives – affairs and family betrayal seem to top the list when it comes to murder.

It is even more tragic, because the person, or people who are targeting the victim, also have the most access, and trust. When murder occurs within families, all of the family members suffer, especially the children. 

When spouses have affairs, one cannot overlook the fact, their spouse may have a lover, who is plotting to kill them. One of the most amazing things about it, is they are often church going couples. Just because someone goes to church, does not mean they are pure of heart. 

Betrayal, affairs, divorce, break-ups, jealousy, money, and revenge seem to top the list of reasons, for family, and intimate partner murders. 

Next to those murders, it seems to be neighbours who are the next likely culprits. Sometimes it is due to neighbourhood conflicts over property lines, noise, barking dogs, loud or fast vehicles, etc. Other times, it is a matter of being in proximity to a violent criminal. 

Many neighbour conflicts escalate, and as the conflict heats up, so does the chance of violence or irrational reactions. One becomes paranoid of the aggressor, and sometimes it is the paranoid one who ends up committing the crime. 

A couple of years ago in Toronto, five people in a condo were shot and killed by a deranged resident, who was in conflict with multiple people. I believe he managed to kill all of them, by going to their residence, and knocking on their door. 

In other cases, there is not a conflict with the neighbour, but it is simply the proximity, and access to a victim. They are strangers for the most part, but nevertheless, their lives cross paths.

There was a case in Vancouver where an elderly couple were brutally murdered by a young man who lived nearby. He fixated on committing a violent crime, watched the couple for weeks to get familiar with their routines, and targeted them for unknown reasons. Possibly because they seemed vulnerable, and he believed he could overpower them.

The elderly man used a walker, so the young coward decided to ambush him in his own home. After that, he waited for the wife to come home from work. She barely got in the door, and he pounced on her. Thankfully, he got caught within a couple of weeks. 

In London, a woman had a noise dispute with a nasty neighbour. The neighbour yapped about it endlessly to a boyfriend. One day, he brought a gun when he visited her, and to prove his tough guy loyalty, he committed murder. He simply went and knocked on the neighbours door, and shot her when she opened the door. 

Closer to home, near Vancouver, a woman manipulated a neighbour into driving her around, lifting heavy objects etc. Being a nice guy, who was quiet and reserved, he had trouble saying no to her, so he complied. 

But she too, had an unsavoury type boyfriend, who worked out of town two or three weeks, then was home for a week. While he was away, she used her neighbour as her driver, and lackey. 

One day when he was driving her somewhere, she lit up a cigarette in his car. By this time, he was fed up with being used, and exploited. He felt trapped, and had been stewing about her constant demands. So he finally asserted himself, and told her to put the cigarette out. 

She refused. So he stopped the car, and told her to get out. She refused. 

What he probably should have done, was call the police. But instead, he went around to the passenger side of the car, opened the door, and tried to pull her out of the car. 

She wailed and screamed, which did bring the police, and he was charged with assault.

When her boyfriend came home, she carried on about it to him. By this time, the police had heard both sides of the story, and dropped the assault charges. 

Since they lived in the same condo, the woman’s boyfriend went over, kicked the door down, and seriously assaulted the neighbour, enough to put him in the hospital for ten days.

During his recovery, he realized he had no choice but to move. With the help of some family members, he found another apartment. 

Meanwhile, because the boyfriend was charged with assault over the incident, he lost his job. So he had more rage, more time on his hands, and more hours to listen to the manipulative woman carrying on, and whining about being assaulted. 

Instead of just accepting the fact the poor guy was moving to get away from it all, they would not let it go. They followed the moving truck, and he was murdered, before he even got moved into his new apartment. 

In the cases, where women manipulated men to the point they committed violent crimes, the men were charged, and the women got off without any charges. Whether or not they learned from it, and stopped the nasty tactics, who knows?

In spite of the fact that most neighbours are helpful, and supportive, upholding a good community standard – clearly not all of them are. 

Next to the affairs, intimate partners, and neighbours turning violent – would probably be co-workers, or business associates. Once again, people get duped into money schemes, and sometimes it costs them their lives.

Or sometimes a co-worker will start stalking a female worker, and when she rejects his advances, he gets mad. In other cases, a person gets fired, and then seeks revenge. 

In one case, an executive, and mortgage broker took a deposit, and agreed to arrange a commercial loan. The loan was not approved, and for some reason the deposit of $18,000.00 was not returned.

Whatever their policy was, it was not made clear at the onset, because the would be borrower expected to get his money back.

He hounded the lender for months on end, and as time went on, the messages became increasingly agitated. He started to threaten violence.

Rather than return the deposit, the lender contacted the police in Toronto, and basically, they blew him off. They told him the threats were not specific enough. One of the threats was “if you live like a gangster, you will die like a gangster.” I am no expert on what constitutes a threat, but that sure “seems” like a threat. 

If the guy had said something more specific, like his name, and then called him a gangster, therefore he was going to die like a gangster – would that have been specific enough I wonder? 

Just four days later, the executive, husband, and father, was shot dead in the hallway, as he was walking into work. Even more alarming, a co-worker walked through the door just seconds later. She attempted to do CPR, but he died at the scene. 

In many of these cases, there were signs. But the victim did not escape, even though they often knew they were in danger. 

Other instances involve home invasions, botched robberies, and drug crazed killers doing something impulsive. The victims are in the wrong place at the wrong time. 

One of the true crime detectives said that most homicides occur between midnight and two in the morning. He also stated that people often got murdered just based on something they said during an argument. 

In an ideal world, we would be able to love and trust one another. Especially when it comes to spouses, families and neighbours. Fortunately for the most part we can love one another.

But we should also be astute, and cautious when it comes to blind trust. 

Even though some people never get caught, and a certain percentage of cases go cold – no one ever truly gets away with murder. 

They will always be waiting for that knock on the door, as DNA and the science of forensics becomes increasingly sophisticated. If not, their conscience might get to them.

An example of the conscience catching up to a guy, was related to a twenty year cold case. This man had murdered a woman at a party in a remote location. He was so drunk, he hardly remembered the circumstances or reasons for it, and since so one at the party even knew who he was, or knew the victim, it was a random murder. 

It did weigh on him though. One day, he got what was a misdial or a wrong number from a drug store employee. The message was simply about a prescription in a cue, that had been filled, and was ready to be picked up. 

Somehow when the employee had mistakenly left a message telling him his number had come up, so he could come in an pick up the prescription, he thought it was a ruse. He had not taken a prescription into the drugstore to be filled.

He kept dwelling on the words his “number was up”, and became certain he was being set up. He was afraid to go to the drugstore, and see what it was all about. He was afraid to even call them back. 

So finally, after all those years, he went to the police station and turned himself in. When he gave the details only the killer would know, they realized it was true. 

Luckily we live in a country with a fairly low homicide rate. In spite of the many reasons for homicide, fortunately the chances of being murdered is minimal. It is even more unlikely if you manage to steer clear of high risk devious schemes, and plots. 

But murder goes right back to when Adam and Eve were first created in the Garden of Eden. Their son Cain, killed his brother Abel in a jealous rage. 

Even though Cain tried to hide his crime, God immediately knew what he had done. By this example, we know that God knows when someone commits murder. 

The Bible prophecies do tell us that as we approach the end of the age, there will be more murder, violence and chaos. It also tells us there will be more family betrayal.

As the seals in the Book of Revelation are opened one by one, it shows us the four horses of the apocalypse, and tells us what each one means. 

All of them seem to represent conflict and death. The first horse is white, and sets out to conquer. The second horse is red, and represents war, and people killing one another.

The third horse is black, and represents famine, and an imbalance of food and resources. The final pale horse represents death, with hell or hades following close behind. 

In addition, the Bible tells us the end times will be “as in the days of Noah”. Even though there was corruption, violence, wickedness etc. during that time frame, people were also living life as normal. At least to a certain extent, because we are told they were eating, drinking, and getting married. 

So it appears life will become more perilous as time goes on. In spite of all these things, we are encouraged to be hopeful, and not filled with fear. We are to be aware, watchful, and remain faithful. 

I guess the moral of the story, is to do our best to avoid getting into circumstances that might put our life in peril. But even so, we can be assured of one thing.  No one gets away with murder. 

The true miracle throughout all of the ages, is of Christ overcoming death and hell, with a promise of eternal life, and forgiveness for our sins. It is something that can sustain us, no matter what happens.

After awhile the fear of death has no power over us. What a relief it is to know we are saved.

Another Heartbreaking & Senseless Australian True Crime Story ~ Dr. Victor Chang

Not to suggest that Canada, and every other country, is not rife with heartbreaking true crime stories, but some are just more notable than others. Even though this story is not a current story, as it happened more than thirty years ago, it is worth retelling since the killers are now out of jail. 

This story is about a heartless crime toward a man who had become a successful, and renowned heart transplant surgeon in Australia.

Dr. Chang was an Australian transplant surgeon who was murdered in 1991 in a failed extortion, kidnapping attempt. He was on his way to work a the time, and had a patient waiting for a heart transplant when he was killed.

He was born in Shanghai China, and after his mother died of cancer when he was just twelve years old, he chose a career in medicine. His father sent him to school in Australia where he believed his gifted young son would have better educational and career choices.

As it turned out, he became a skilled, and accomplished transplant surgeon, rising to fame after a successful transplant on a fourteen year old girl in 1984. She desperately needed a transplant following a viral tonsillitis that infected her heart. Two years after the first transplant, the initial surgery failed, and she was required to go through a second heart transplant in 1986.

After the second transplant, she went on to lead a healthy life, and became the longest surviving transplant patient on record in Australia. She also became a tireless advocate for the work of Dr Chang and his team. 

As a matter of interest, one of the longest surviving heart transplant patients globally, is from Canada. His name is Harold Sokyrka, and his transplant was carried out in 1986 in Ontario. He lived just one week short of thirty-five years following the transplant.

It took several years for the pioneers of this surgery to achieve success. The first heart transplant was performed in 1967 on a 53 year old patient in South Africa. He died of complications just eighteen days later.

At the time of his death, Dr. Chang and his team had performed 266 heart transplants during his career. His accomplishments were awe-inspiring, and even so, at that juncture of his life, he was at the top of his game. He would have performed many more heart transplant surgeries, if his life had not been cut short. He had a healthy stable family life, and was known to be a compassionate man.

He had no way of knowing he had been targeted. He was a man of routine, taking the same route to work each day. He had a wife, and three children, who were all at home, at the time of his murder.

The preposterous nature of the crime shocked Australia, and the world. Because he was targeted by Asian men, initially it was believed to have been gang related.

Rumours also circulated that perhaps he was targeted by Chinese authorities, because of his pro-democracy political leanings. But these theories proved to be unfounded.

The crux of the plot stemmed from initially three, then two Malaysian men who had racked up huge gambling debts. So they concocted a scheme to extort money from a rich and famous person, in order to pay off their gambling debts.

The majority of murder victims are killed by someone they know. This case falls into the random stranger attack category, which is always much more disturbing to the general public, as it makes people feel very vulnerable. There is a loss of security for all people, because if it can happen to a person who is simply on their way to work, it can happen to anyone.

In this case, Dr. Chang was well known, which put him in the crosshairs of deranged killers. It was a money making scheme they focused on for many weeks, yet the murder ended up being a hair brained impulsive act. 

They saw an article about Dr. Chang while thumbing through a magazine, and randomly chose him as a target. It was as amateur, stupid, and ill-conceived as can be. Yet it cost this poor man his life.

Following the magazine selection, they watched him closely for weeks on end, to determine where he lived, and what his routines were. On the morning of the murder, they followed him on his way to work, and rammed his vehicle, staging a car accident, which forced him to pull off the freeway, and get out to talk to the men.

It did not take long for Dr. Chang to realize it was an extortion plot. The men demanded ten million dollars. He refused. They told him they were going to take him back to his house, and kill his family.

Dr. Chang was not going to allow these thugs to get near his family. He started calling out to people who were passing by to “Call the police, these men have guns”. One of the people walking by, came close to being shot as well. He managed to run away just seconds before Dr. Chang was shot. 

When the Malaysian men could not gain the good doctor’s cooperation, one of them promptly shot him in the head, point blank.

If they would have left at that point, he would still be alive, because the first shot was not fatal, even though it knocked him out. Unfortunately, the crazy criminal shot him again.

Remarkably, the killer dropped his wallet at the crime scene, with all kinds of evidence in it. The police were able to identify him, track him down, and soon after, his accomplice was also captured, even though he had left the country.

Given the fact these men were gamblers, one can see the patterns of high risk and impulsive behaviours, with little chance of succeeding.

There was also unbridled greed, considering they demanded ten million dollars. They set themselves up for failure, and killed a man for no reason. They gained nothing but a lengthy prison sentence. 

Both men were charged, and sentenced to around 25 years in jail. They have since been paroled, and were promptly deported.

One of the men convicted of this crime, was already in advanced stages of Parkinson’s disease by the time of his release. Although it is probably of little consolation to the family, he made a heart-felt plea for forgiveness, expressing profound remorse.

Dr. Chang’s legacy lives on, through his family, as well as his lengthy career. Millions of dollars have been raised to continue the work he embarked upon. He was given prestigious awards, and will certainly never be forgotten by his patients, and their families.

In one of the final interviews he gave, he prophetically said, “Life is not certain for any of these people.” After a brief pause, he said to the interviewer, with a serious and thoughtful expression on his face, “And it is not certain for you and I either”.

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The Australian Mushroom Poisonings ~ Is Like An Unfolding Agatha Christie Novel

It is still early in this unfolding mushroom saga, but nevertheless, the person who cooked it up does not have a very good explanation for preparing and serving such a deadly meal. She adamantly claims she meant no harm. 

Death cap mushrooms grow in the wild in many countries, to include Canada’s west coast, Europe, North Africa, Scandinavia, Ireland, Poland, Russia, and Australia. This type of mushroom is responsible for 90% of mushroom fatalities worldwide.

However, in spite of their widespread growth, and deadly toxins, it is not the least bit common for someone to cook them up and serve them to a group of people.

There are only about a hundred mushroom fatalities per year worldwide. In some cases, a small child has plucked one off the ground, and eaten it without the parent seeing, or catching it on time. In a handful of cases, death caps were misidentified. Apparently they have a resemblance to straw mushrooms, but straw mushrooms grow in Asia, not Australia.

Death cap mushrooms do grow in Australia, and are noted to grow in the area where this poisoning occurred. So it is possible she picked them herself, even though she claimed to have bought them.

Most people who go mushroom picking know how to identify what is safe, and avoid what is poison. Anyone who does go out picking mushrooms should be very cautious.

While living on Haida Gwaii, I will admit to having picked buckets full of chanterelle mushrooms. It was kind of cool, because you find a few, and like following bread crumbs through the forest, suddenly you come into a clearing loaded with chanterelles, glistening like harvest gold in the fall sun.

But chanterelle mushrooms have very distinctive colouring, and are easy to identify. I did see some strange looking mushrooms that actually looked sinister. I think it would be riskier to pick some of the different varieties, including psilocybin, because there is a whole field of knowledge to gain, before heading into those fields.

If a person did decide to intentionally poison someone, death cap mushrooms would do the deed, probably quicker than anti-freeze.

When I saw the initial video clip of Erin Patterson crying about the death of her in-laws due to a lunch she served, my first thought was, but why are you still alive? I mean she served the same lunch to a group of people, and they were fatally poisoned, with the exception of one, who is clinging to life and requiring a liver transplant. That was the fate of her guests. 

Yet somehow she, the one who prepared the meal, is unscathed except for an abundance of crocodile tears. To paraphrase a few things she said from the get go, it is interesting to note the first thing she did, was to contact a criminal lawyer. She then refused to answer basic questions from the police about where the poison mushrooms came from.

She eventually disclosed where she got them. She claimed she bought dried mushrooms from an Asian grocery store, and combined them with fresh mushrooms from a local supermarket. But for the life of her, she could not remember the name of the Asian grocery store.

If she was genuinely grief stricken over what happened to her in-laws, you would think her first concern would be to warn others about the potential for poisoning. You would think she would immediately cooperate with police, and give as many details as possible, including exactly where she got them.

But first it was “no comment” to the repeated questions, and then it was a vague reference to an Asian grocery store, but she could not remember where it was.

So right out of the gate, suspicions began to stir the rumour mills. Following the extensive crying without answering their questions, the media was determined to find out, so they hounded her relentlessly.

She had a bucket load of dry tears, and emotional drama, while clearly trying to avoid giving any details such as how it happened, where the mushrooms came from, and how she managed to come through it all without being poisoned too.

One thing I have noticed after watching a number of true crime shows, is how common it is for the person who has committed the crime to act overly emotional and dramatic. The case of Alex Murdaugh is an example of this. When he called 911, he put on an act to appear shocked and devastated, wailing over the phone, as though he had just discovered the bodies, and was completely overwhelmed. 

Although there is a wide range of responses to shocking crimes and death, it is not uncommon for people to put on an act, in an attempt to demonstrate strong emotions. However, if a person does put on an act in front of the media, it is even worse than if they cry and wail over the phone, because when in front of the camera, every single nuance, word, body language, and in particular, facial expression, can be dissected, studied, paused, and diagnosed like a frog in a laboratory. 

Everything from the eyebrows, the eyes, the mouth, the way the words are used, and the expression that goes with each word, is evaluated by countless experts. They do not miss anything. So anyone who stands in front of the media is wise to tell the truth, or else put a blanket over their head and hide. 

Police investigations do not get advanced based on emotions. All the crying in the world does not make a difference to them. They have seen it all, and will follow the evidence, not the tears. They are also intuitive, and likely to be on the cynical side. They may not have advanced degrees in every nuance of the body language and facial expression, but they do have the well honed gut feeling.  They may have to set it aside temporarily as they work things through, but they do not ignore it. The gut has already been proven to be part of the rapid communication between the instinct, and the brain. 

Probably some of them do have advanced degrees in assessing body language, but regardless, they can pick up on those subtleties like a bloodhound on a trail. They can also go over video footage and get expert consultation after the interview. Who can blame them for being cynical? They have a job that requires a certain level of skepticism, not gullibility, or they would never solve the crimes. 

The media, like the police, are prone to hunches and gut instinct as well, and will chase a story, herding up every word, like an industrious and energetic border collie. They will not let one utterance stray off, without pouncing, and nipping at the heels. The old adage “loose lips sink ships” does apply to unexplained deaths. 

Just based on what has been reported in the news, it seems incredible to me she would contact a lawyer, initially say “no comment”, and then give a publicized media interview, especially without anticipating the most likely, and pressing question of all would be, “what about the lunch you cooked?”

Instead she went on about how the dinner guests had never harmed her, and how devastated she was. Why would the issue of harm be brought up at all? The media was not asking her if she had a reason to harm them, or if they had ever harmed her. They were asking her specifically about the lunch, and where the mushrooms came from. 

She should have known she could not duck out of answering the most important question of all. Yet she waffled, deflected, and clearly did not want to talk about the lunch she had so meticulously prepared. She spent hours and hours cooking a special dish, yet she did not want to discuss it at all, not even to issue a carefully prepared statement about it to the media? Very strange. 

The fact she claimed to have been poisoned too, sounds completely bogus to me. She could have easily told hospital staff she had diarrhea and vomiting, or had abdominal pain. How could they prove otherwise?

She said they gave her IV fluids and liver medications, and sent her home. But even so – she was just fine hours and days later, when that is not what happens with death cap mushroom poisoning. What about the fact the poisoning attacks the liver and kidneys days later? What about the fact there is a period of improvement, followed by worsening of symptoms and organ failure? 

Does she really believe she would be out of danger by being given a liver protecting drug? If it was so simple, why didn’t the others get the liver protecting drug, and get sent home too?

Obviously if a liver protecting drug can be an antidote for the poison, the other guests who were so sick would have been given it as well, as soon as they were admitted. Why did it protect her and not them?

The mushroom experts, and doctors familiar with these poisonings, claim there is no antidote at all. It is not like snake venom, or other types of poisoning, that can be given an antidote and reversed. It is precisely what makes them so dangerous, and why the death is painful, irreversible, and horrific. It is also why victims of death cap poisoning need a liver transplant. 

In my opinion, this woman is not the sharpest tool in the shed. She makes claims that do not make sense, are easy to disprove, and make her look more guilty, not less. Did she really get a liver protective medication? I wonder what it was called, and how effective it is in cases of death cap mushroom poisoning? Only for her I guess. 

She also claimed her children were not home for the lunch. They went to the movies. You would kind of think they would be there too, in order to spend time with their grandparents. Maybe it was to be a meal meant for an adult conversation. She repeatedly said her children loved their grandparents. They may have gone to the movies, to allow for a private discussion, or perhaps to spare them some anticipated confrontations, or information their mother did not want them to hear. Who knows? At this point, there is a great deal of speculation. 

She then explained, the next day was when she scraped the mushrooms off the beef wellington, and fed the leftovers to her kids. Huh? How does it make sense, if the rest of the guests fell ill within a matter of hours?

She also said she herself got sick. Symptoms first occur within about eight to ten hours, depending on the amount consumed. It means those who ate the lunch would have been sick by 10 pm, assuming they ate lunch between noon and 2pm.

Why would anyone in their right mind feed the same meal to her children the following day? She claimed she was admitted to hospital, presumedly on the same night as the rest of the guests, and released in the morning. So she went home and promptly gave the kids the same meal? I really wonder if she was admitted to the hospital at all. Again, it is easy enough to prove or disprove. 

If she did give the kids the meal, even if she scraped the mushrooms off, they still would have been poisoned. Therefore, in addition to other lies she told, this too has to be a lie.

Although at this point, it is all speculation, we do know there were poisonings. The reason I think she is lying about giving the children the same meal the next day, is because it would have been toxic, and she would have known it definitively by then.

It sounds like she made this claim to explain why the children were not fed the same meal when she served it to their grandparents. She was trying to make a case for innocence, but kept making it worse. 

The key thing about dehydrated mushrooms, is they take on the moisture from whatever they are cooked in, and become rehydrated. The moisture from the fresh mushrooms, beef, and other ingredients, would have toxins from the death cap mushrooms leeching throughout the entire dish. That is precisely why people add savoury ingredients to a meal. They permeate and blend with the other ingredients.

Beef wellington is especially well known for the succulent and juicy meat used in the dish. The contamination with toxins, if they were actually used in the cooking, had to be spread throughout the entire dish.

The only other explanation might be that she surreptitiously added some dried death cap mushroom powder to certain plates, and did not cook the death caps into the beef wellington.

The possibility she crushed, powdered, and added them to tea crossed my mind as well. It might be less likely, but it is possible. Mushroom tea is not unheard of, and the taste could be disguised, if mixed with something else. In addition, the guests had the taste of mushrooms on their palette anyway, so may not have noticed the taste in tea.

It is not a theory I have heard anyone else make, but it did occur to me, because I have seen many dried mushroom powders in health food stores, so they do get dried, and ground for herbal teas. Surely they do not use death caps, but it is possible they too could be prepared in such a way. 

In my opinion, it is very doubtful she gave the mushroom dish to the children at all. I also do not believe she ate one bit of the toxic mix herself. Given her weak explanations, it is also hard to explain how she herself escaped being poisoned. Hopefully the remaining victim will survive, and be able to shed some light on what truly happened, in particular how she acted throughout the lunch. 

The next red flag is when she claimed she had thrown out a food dehydrator months prior to the poisonings. Yet while in the hospital after the poisonings, her ex husband accused her of poisoning them. She claimed to have panicked, and thrown out the food dehydrator after he made this accusation. She also admitted to having lied about it to police.

Whatever the truth is, they did find it, and they also have CTV footage of when she took it to the recycling plant. So regardless of what she says about the timing surrounding the disposal of it, they already have proof. Although I am not sure, I have also heard hints about proof surrounding her claims of being taken to hospital by ambulance herself. But once again, it is still inconclusive until all the pieces are put together to make the whole story. 

It is also interesting to note she did not take the food dehydrator to the recycling place nearest to her house, but chose one a bit further away. It could be she was driving past the further location for another reason. But still, it does seem she had issues with the food dehydrator, and getting rid of it was a big deal. 

The next question is, why would she have used a food dehydrator to dehydrate dried mushrooms? She had supposedly purchased them at an Asian grocery store, and kept in the cupboard for months? They were already dehydrated. For crying out loud – maybe it explains why she was crying out loud. 

Why would she have panicked about the food dehydrator in the first place? Why would she have thrown it out? It sounds like there is a good chance they will find residue from death cap mushrooms in the food dehydrator. If so, how is she going to explain that?

It has been divulged she is an expert mushroom forager, and knew what she was doing when it came to identifying mushrooms. Even so, she did not claim to have picked them herself. If she had claimed to pick them herself, her defence would not be as difficult. She could wail and claim she made a dreadful mistake. She didn’t have her glasses on, she was really tired, or whatever.

But now, she is committed to the Asian grocery store claim, as far as the source of the mushrooms is concerned. She also cannot explain why no one else in the community bought mushrooms from the same store, why there were no other poisonings, or recalls, etc. Whatever was being cooked up in her mind, she was not thinking it through. 

Also the chances of commercial growers and sellers being guilty of selling poisonous mushrooms, is almost nil. So she has locked herself into an unlikely source. No doubt it has caused a drop in mushroom sales. 

To add to the dishy roman-fleuve, her ex-husband suffered a severe bout of gastric illness and almost died a year or so prior to this episode. He was also invited to the lethal lunch, but backed out at the last minute.

Another thing to surface, was when a painter showed pictures of a kitchen wall at the former residence of this woman, showing all kinds of strange death related imagery, tombstones and words like “death by my sword”. Why would anyone have such macabre images and words on their kitchen wall? Like everything else about her, why would she be dumb enough to leave it there when she moved? Obviously the realtor, and others who see it are bound to be alarmed. 

The writing is on the wall. The assumption was the children did all the morbid doodling, but maybe she was the one who did it. It certainly did not look like the drawings children would make, however I don’t know how old they are. Also, whose handwriting was it? There were many words alongside the images.

Toxicology reports take many weeks, and it will take many more weeks, or months for the police to do an in-depth investigation. Of course she is innocent until proven guilty. Regardless of what anyone’s opinions are, many people are afraid to say what they think before the remaining details are known. However, there are many legitimate questions, whether she likes it or not.

So far, the one good thing to come of it, is her children are safe, as they have apparently been removed from her custody. At least they are protected from any potential harm, or strange concoctions. 

At this point, along with millions of others, people are praying for the one surviving victim. It has already been three weeks since his horrible ordeal began. Let’s hope he lives to tell his story, and is able to make a full recovery.

If it does turn out to be intentional, it certainly falls into the category of diabolical. Poisoning has to be one of the sneakiest, and cruelest forms of death. I think most people would rather be shot.

Preparing and serving food is supposed to be nurturing. It is traditionally one of the most positive shared experiences known to people from all cultures and walks of life. To betray the trust and good will involved in such a gathering, is beyond comprehension.

Usually if a person is poisoned intentionally, it is done to one individual. There have been cases where a murderer poisoned one individual, and then later used the same method on another.

Who knows what the outcome will be, but it does seem odd for all the people at a dinner or lunch party to be fatally poisoned, and only the one who prepared the meal survived unscathed. It sounds like she has a lot more explaining to do. Crocodile tears are not going to get her out of the jam she is in.

If she does manage to avoid being charged, how many people are going to eat anything she cooks ever again? Even her children would not be safe, because who knows what she might feed them?

Even if it was a mistake, obviously she is not cooking with a full deck. She thinks she is being unfairly portrayed by the media as an evil witch. If she is not an evil witch, there is still something seriously wrong with her thought processes, and her cooking abilities. 

If she does turn out to be guilty of intentional poisoning, it confirms the one thing I believe is the biggest mistake a murder victim ever makes. They are trusting, and do not consider the possibility the person they know, could be, or might be homicidal. It’s an understandable, and innocent, but often fatal mistake. They trusted. Trust should never have such consequences, especially in families, but sadly, it often does. 

It doesn’t sound like she is too fond of the media. They did not buy into her emotional drama, sans the full account of what actually happened. They have been hounding her like a pack of hungry dogs. But they better not take any scraps she throws their way!

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What Is The Point Of So Many True Crime Podcasts?

The burgeoning number of true crime podcasts does suggest there is an interest if not a fascination with true crime. Some of the true crime podcasts are very well researched and have good storytellers.

However, as it is with all things – there should be a limit, especially if the podcaster is using the tragedy of other people’s lives to exalt themselves, and put themselves front and centre of every news grabbing story.

It can be the epitome of narcissism, when someone plasters their pretty face in the middle of every gruesome crime, and retells the same gory details that have been exposed through shows like Dateline, 48 Hours, Fifth Estate, true crime writers and so on.

In the case of true crime writers, those who write books about certain crimes, they actually do multiple interviews with family members, witnesses, and police. They also attend the trial, and make observations during the trial, taking copious notes.

They do not simply watch the Dateline version, dig up whatever is made available to the public about the crime, and then retell the same story, with their own face replacing Keith Morrison or Ann Rule. Most of the true crime writers put the time and effort into creating the relationships that provide insight into the crime, and how it developed. 

It is not to suggest amateur sleuths and podcasters are not helpful in some cases. I believe the benefit in posting amateur true crime podcasts, is when there is an unsolved crime. They have to be careful not to accuse anyone directly, but they can show pictures, social media posts, or information, to help the investigation.

In cases of unsolved crime, it seems most often the family wants to keep the story alive until the crime is solved. Or in the case of a missing person, until they are found, so they can get some peace, and mourn the death, instead of wondering every day if they might be alive somewhere. Naturally the family wants to find out what happened to their loved one. 

I can think of several cases where an unsolved case was kept alive for many years, often with family putting up billboards, and staying in touch with media, and other writers. They do so with the hope it will bring out clues, or that someone with knowledge will come forward. Sometimes the intimate partner of the perpetrator knows something, but does not come forward until years later, when the relationship dissolves.

In many cases, the podcasters and amateur sleuths do dig up information to contribute valuable information, and tips when it comes to solving a crime. People have dashboard cameras, Go Pro cameras, doorbell cameras, security cameras, etc. that capture critical information, such as in the Gabby Petito case.

If not for the couple who happened to pass by on the remote dirt road where she was being buried, it might have taken years to find her, if at all. If not for the coincidence of those who happened to drive past the van, as well as the inclination to document their own journey, the case may never have been solved.

In the case of Chris Watts, his neighbour immediately brought forth critical evidence captured by his own home security system. In fact, his neighbour, and those closest to the Watts family, were the first to know who did it, long before the investigation was complete.

I think the Idaho student murders also had contributions from many community members, who saw and identified his car, which ultimately led to the identification of the murderer. So in all these ways, the involvement of a wider community, social media, and the many cameras, do help solve crimes. Not only that, but the cameras provide much better evidence than eye witness testimony can. 

But when the podcaster is retelling and rehashing the grisly details of crimes that have already been solved and told many times, just to try and use a newsworthy tragedy and loss, in order to put themselves in the spotlight, it crosses the boundaries into exploitation, in my opinion.

Not long ago I skimmed over a three part series that a woman did on a grisly family murder. It has been covered numerous times already, and happened years ago. This same woman has her photoshopped beauty standing out in every single story she does, placing herself in front of the crime victims. In the case of the three part crime story she retold, in excruciating boring minute detail, it was about a son who killed his parents, and then burned their bodies. The crime was horrific, the murder was solved long ago, and the professionals did tell the stories, complete with interviews and outcomes.

How does it benefit anyone to retell such a story in every gory gruesome detail? Some of these people are still rehashing the Jodi Arias crime, which was also solved, brought to trial, and covered by all the news outlets. The crime happened fifteen years ago. Retelling the story does not do anyone any good. In fact, it is horrible for those close to the victim, because it never gets put to rest.

All it does is magnify the criminal, and the notoriety they often seek, to serve their own ghastly claim to fame. Some of them, like Jody Arias revel in the spotlight. Why enable and promote such warped self gratification?

I can certainly understand the conversations about human psychology, and behaviour that helps people understand, or come to terms with violent crime. I can also understand why people have an interest in such stories, and finding out some of the dark intrigue surrounding what makes people tick. It is especially so if the perpetrator seemed to be, or came across as being a normal person. People marvel at how they could be sitting next to someone who harboured such a degree of deception, violence and rage.

If the podcasters put themselves in the background where they belong, it is more appropriate, as opposed to plastering their own image onto every grisly crime that ever happened. I do not see the benefit of the attention grabbing YouTubers who attach themselves to such atrocities, to satisfy their own attempts to be famous, or show how attractive and brilliant they are. 

In the case of Jodi Arias, her father died under mysterious circumstances, with some reports saying it was suicide, because he could not reconcile what kind of person his daughter had become. This should serve as a reminder that these perpetrators leave behind victims within their own families and communities, who may never be able to come to terms with what the person did, or the guilt they might feel as a parent or family member of such a person. 

The dead do not know who is talking about them. But the living do know, and the podcasters should be sensitive to the fact it can reopen the wounds, over and over again. Then the family is subjected to comments, hate mail, and a notoriety they did not invite into their lives. 

Justice for the victims is very important, and opinions are always a part of widely publicized crimes. But who needs to make themselves into a wannabe celebrity over those crimes? What is the point?

In many cases, the parent or family member of a crime victim will have a massive heart attack before, or right after the trial. The trial itself puts incredible emotional and psychological pressure on family members. One would hope that once the verdict is in, the process of healing can begin.

You can tell when a person is using tragic and high profile cases to exalt themselves, because they put their own picture front and centre, and plaster it all over YouTube, to show off how glamorous and beautiful they are. They make sure they outshine the victims, and sugar coat it with nauseating feigned empathy.

What they are actually doing is keeping old wounds open. They are not interviewing family members or the perpetrator, as they do in the more professional shows, to help lend insight into the motives.

They are not collaborating with anyone. Nor are they adding any new information that is the least bit relevant. They are taking those Dateline stories, and news articles, and simply retelling the story in order to put their own face and stamp of “content creation” on a YouTube channel.

They might earn a couple hundred dollars a month doing sponsorship ads. So when you combine that with the fact they plaster their own image on hundreds of crime stories, and then retell the same story based on someone else’s content that they manage to dredge up – isn’t that exploitation?

In my opinion, if the crime has been solved, and the case has already been broadcasted, there is no justification for retelling the story over and over. In fact I believe it does more harm than good.

If a family member of the victim decides to tell the story from their own perspective, that is fine. It could help contribute to a broader understanding, or provide insight for other family victims. But for random people to piggy back some notion of personal fame, and use those crimes to build a following and fame for themselves on YouTube does seem to cross a line. Furthermore, it does not meet the criteria for original content.

There are people who strive to build channels on YouTube with all sorts of topics, from politics, to religion, to travel, to wellness, to camping and living off the grid. In those cases, they are sharing ideas, experiences, personal beliefs, research, and imagery that places the focus on the concept they are promoting.

One would think, and hope that when a person retells grisly crime stories over and over, with their own face plastered front and centre, they don’t have enough ideas of their own to keep a channel alive.

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Why The Lindsay Clancy Case Is Going To Have Difficulty Finding Experts On Homicidal Postpartum Depression

I just read an article, which I will post in a link at the end of this blog post. It is an expert psychiatric assessment on the reviews and overview of women who kill their children. Apparently maternal homicide is more common in the US than any other country, however they did do a study on this topic covering thirty-nine different countries. In each case the study group was very small. 

Sadly child homicide is listed in the top three or four causes of death for children. The term for it is filicide, and for newborns or infants, is called infanticide. Although a high percentage of women experience postpartum depression, very few take it to the extreme of actually harming or murdering their child, or all of their children.

However, something not addressed in the article is the fact that throughout history, there have been times of increased child homicides, some of them religious or occult in nature. In other cases, it was due to extreme hardship, in particular famine. The Bible has quite a few references to infant and child homicide, along with descriptions of some of the depravity leading up to it. Some of the atrocities cited are absolutely horrific. 

Another topic not covered in the article is the use of, or overuse of psychoactive medications. I suppose the field of psychiatry would not be prone to taking any responsibility for the possibility that the very medications they prescribe might be contributing factors. Therefore, all expert psychiatric testimony might also carry an element of self protection, denial, and conflict of interest. However when you look at the background, and evidence from some of these famous cases, the mother was prescribed a range of potent psychotropic medications prior to the murders.

In other literature there are numerous articles written about suicidal and homicidal ideation for a percentage of those who take SSRI’s as it is a commonly prescribed antidepressant. In addition, antipsychotic medication played a role in the death of the Andrea Yates five children, because she was taking the drug Haldol, which was a potent and commonly prescribed antipsychotic used during that time frame, and has since been pulled from the market. There is a long list of reasons, and adverse reactions to demonstrate why it was finally removed as a general treatment for psychosis. As it is with so many other harmful medications, it took years before Haldol was finally taken out of general use, in order to protect the public. 

In the case of Lindsay Clancy, she was prescribed a chemical soup of psychiatric medications, thirteen in total, but was apparently taking around four medications at the time of the murders. It is difficult to understand why a nurse would be willing to take so many potent medications, when she is caring for small children. One would presume she would know about the many severe side effects associated with such drugs, to include unpredictable reactions, confused thoughts, and irreversible, life altering movement disorders.

People immediately jump on the band wagon about mental illness, postpartum depression, and the lack of resources, lack of help, etc. In this case, it has been reported that Lindsay Clancy was going to an outpatient clinic five days a week. She was frequenting doctors so often, she had a long list of medications prescribed to her over a short time frame. Most people would not even see that many for one patient in a forensic psychiatric facility. Why was she so obsessive about seeking more medications, when she was functioning, going places, interacting with others, driving, etc.? How can anyone expect to feel wonderful every minute of every day?

It seemed she was totally obsessed with how she was feeling, as opposed to caring for a family. What mother does not experience fatigue, bad days, and resentment toward her spouse and child care at times? What is most abnormal, is the homicidal ideation, not the fact a person experiences depression or anxiety. 

Historically, countless women have gone through far worse, and would never give a thought to killing their children. Women have lived through domestic violence, poverty, addictions, severe depression, severe illnesses, war, multiple births, washing clothes by hand or wringer washing machines, doing chores on a farm right after giving birth, living in forty below weather with only wood and coal to heat their homes, no running water, and so on. For the vast majority, killing their children is not even considered to be an option. In fact, most woman would die in order to save their children. 

It is true that many women experience postpartum depression. But it is also true that most of those who do experience it, would never harm their child. To use this one very atypical case to make any kind of blanket judgements, or excuses for such an act of violence and premeditated murder, is a stretch we probably do not want to make. Lindsay Clancy in my opinion, had far more going on in her personality, and beliefs than what met the eye. 

Her husband was working from home. She had family support, medical insurance, an education, and she kept detailed records of every nuance of her mental health, her anxiety, her thoughts, not wanting to go back to work, etc. Was this more about narcissism than anything else? Or was she setting the stage for a plan she already had in the back of her mind? Did she resent having to provide for, and care for the demands of small children? If life revolved around her, it might explain why she could not tolerate the attention given to her own children. 

Sadly, there are certain traits or cases of narcissism where a mother believes the children are an extension of herself. She also might believe that since she gave them life, it is within her power to take away their lives.

Also it is interesting to note, her husband worked from a basement office in their home. She killed the children in the basement, and recently I read the little boy was found in his office. What was she trying to convey?

It is also disturbing to consider her choice of ligature. Did the children interfere with her time for exercise? Did they rob her of a perfect body? People are inclined to delve into the psyche of such an atrocity. Why exercise bands as opposed to some other type of ligature? These are a few more questions to be contemplated, because this woman did seem to know what she was doing. Resentment could very well be at the root of it all.

In recent years, the treatments for depression and psychiatric disorders has had more mind altering medications added to the chemical soup, to include ketamine and psilocybin. Nothing like introducing drugs that cause psychosis, hallucinations, and dissociative reactions, all under the guise of helping people. If they were not crazy to begin with, there is a cocktail of drugs to help them on their way. Once a person starts down this path, they may, or may not come back with all their faculties intact. 

Using hallucinogens in psychiatric experiments is nothing new, because there are shady stories involving LSD, the CIA, and murders, using excessive amounts of LSD, often without the patient’s consent or awareness, going back to the sixties and seventies. Obviously I am digressing a fair bit from the professional article I just read. But as an RN, over the years, I must have handed out a million pills, and witnessed the side effects of those medications as well. 

Historically, when there has been a rise in fascism, often psychiatry is at the forefront of torture and murder. First through poisoning with drugs, then the person becomes delusional and psychotic, and the next thing you know they are gone. Or they develop such severe movement disorders, they must be hospitalized, which places them at the mercy of more drugs, and even worse reactions.

I remember one psych patient who was in her late forties at the time I knew her. The psych nurse who ran a small facility to care for chronically ill psych patients told me she knew this woman years prior to all the treatment, when she was a normal person. She said she had been very intelligent, socially outgoing, articulate, and had been a school teacher. Over just a few years after she sought treatment, she had received so many medications and ECT treatments, she was no longer functional. She could hardly speak, could not take care of herself, and was an empty shell of her former self. What caused her to embark on such a journey? Apparently she sought treatment for a mild depression following the birth of her last child.

When a person is started on such medications, no one other than those close to them knows what they were like before they started taking the medications. The health care system assumes there must have been a legitimate and serious mental health disorder for a person to be prescribed antipsychotics. But it is not always the case, and there is no real documented baseline to go by. The psychiatrist is the one who prescribes the medications, and oversees the patient. People in the system seldom question his/her authority, and one thing to be aware of, psychiatrists are hooked on prescribing drugs. They often prescribe antipsychotics when there is absolutely no evidence or history of psychosis. Mind altering medications are designed to take control away from the patient, and hand it over to a “doctor” who often does not have the best interests of the patient in mind. Some do – but the profession itself is rife with abuse. 

Once it has been established the person is mentally ill and under psychiatric care, it is easy to explain away why they jumped out of a window, committed suicide, or simply disappeared. Psychiatry also has a dark history of torture and experiments with people’s minds. In addition to the overuse of unproven drugs, other so-called therapies have included sleep deprivation, insulin shock, electric shock, nitrous oxide, and cryotherapy. All people should proceed with extreme caution, when navigating this highly questionable mind blowing industry.

Psychiatry as a specialty did not come into existence until the 1800’s, and initially was concerned primarily with those who were obviously very sick. At one time, people who had gone mad were locked away out of sight in deplorable conditions, and in some cases, they were even chained to trees. The early studies of mental health revolved around those who were manic, psychotic, brain injured, and considered to be complete lunatics. Until the 1800’s it was assumed people who were insane were possessed by demons. 

The treatments in psychiatry for the population in general, have only been recently studied, and developed in the past hundred years or so. The bottom line is that human psychology, and the behavioural results of abnormal psychology, are poorly understood to this day. The same goes for all the medication used to treat the errant brain. 

What makes people tick to make them sick? No doubt it is based on a galaxy of crossed motives, combined with genetics, neurochemistry, external influences, circumstances, stressors, resentments, manipulations, emotional instability, other over riding illnesses, spiritual beliefs, lack of self-awareness, intrinsic personality disorders, hormonal imbalances, poor diet, drugs, poor coping mechanisms, lack of exercise, lack of support systems, poor internal boundaries, poor impulse control, degree of self-centredness, the early development or lack of conscience, and family of origin experiences. 

Can the things contributing to mental illness be overcome? Why not? As long as we have functioning brains, we can evaluate and make lifestyle changes to improve our stability and cognition. Diet and exercise make a huge difference. A commitment to maintaining self-control and stability, means you will not become insane. Above all, don’t seek a quick fix with pills. We should be able to trust our minds. One of the verses in the Bible I have found to be a great comfort:

2 Timothy 1:7 KJV  “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and a sound mind.”

Now that I am older and wiser, I will take the Bible verses to heart over a pill any day. I do believe we are spiritual beings, and we need faith to help us overcome fear, anger and hopelessness more than we need to be medicated.

It is true, there are certain violent, psychotic and unstable people, who will become very dangerous if they do not take their medications. These are people who have to be institutionalized, and monitored closely, because they have no control over violent impulses. In all cases, they will also have had trouble with the law, a history of assaults, and a variety of other criminal behaviours. 

Generally people who have depression or anxiety, do not fit into the same category as the out of control violent offenders. In fact, statistics show that more than 50% of all people will be diagnosed with a mental health disorder at some point in their life. Fortunately they do not all become homicidal maniacs. Of the 50% who are never diagnosed, there is no doubt they too, had to cope with anxiety, depression, addiction, or some other mental health disorder at some point. Struggles are a part of life. It does not mean we are all crazy, and in need of potent drugs. 

The biggest question we should ask ourselves, is why the struggles and challenges we face throughout our lives are being diagnosed as mental illness? Just a few years ago, in depression screening, if a person was still grieving a loss such as the death of a spouse a year later, the person would be diagnosed and treated for depression, usually with SSRI antidepressants. Now the time frame for those who are grieving to be diagnosed with depression is just two weeks. It’s taking away the natural progression, and adjustments that are required in order to adapt to a loss. When people are grieving they are vulnerable, which makes them easy to exploit. 

The DSM manual is referred to as a diagnostic bible for mental health disorders. Over the past fifty years the number of mental health disorders listed in the book has grown from forty or so, to several hundred. And it continues to evolve and grow exponentially. If you look at how they go about adding the various disorders, as well as who is behind it all, you would give your head a shake. It all sounds so academically uppity, but there is a motive to their madness orientation, and it is spelled medication. 

One of the major pharmaceutical companies, when promoting drugs specifically for women, told the ghost writers and researchers “to dumb it down” for their target market. Nice eh? Now I see there are articles in the media claiming women are the fasted growing population with Alzheimers. Could it be because women live longer? Could it be because they want to promote HRT, or hormonal replacement drugs? What woman in her right mind, would not be incentivized to keep her mind?

Working in the health care field has made me cynical, and skeptical, with regards to the profit motives, in over medicating people. Over the years, I also noticed how much the drug companies minimize side effects. They would send drug reps to give the educational lectures for nurses.

We were then given post-basic educational credits for the drug company indoctrination. We used to just look at each other, and roll our eyes.  I am more inclined to trust nature versus “her-ture” or “her-cure” carefully dumbed down for women.

We have already given them far too much business. The DSM and pharmaceutical influences, are turning mental health into a medicalized metaphor of fast fashion. How much of this diagnostic mania is “headed” for the landfills? At least with cheap clothes, they can be discarded more easily, than we can detoxify our minds, and bodies of weird drugs that no one fully understands. Even the brilliant corporate bigwigs and psychiatrists admit they don’t know how most of the psychoactive medications work, but they will smugly add “we just know they do work.” Oh really? How profound.  

To top it off the entire scope of diagnostics around mental health has no measuring stick, no real diagnostic criteria, no blood work, no ultrasound, or X-rays. They can do CT scans and MRI’s to determine if there is an organic brain disorder, or tumours. But as far as generalized anxiety and depression, it’s all based on perception. One must also differentiate whether or not it is the patient’s perception, or the doctor’s perception. There are many incentives to medicate people. 

The article states that the percentage of men who kill their children is roughly equal to that of women. It also describes the high risk period in the immediate postnatal period of time, as having certain defining factors. Those high risk factors include unwanted pregnancies, teenage pregnancies, lack of support, lack of education, lack of a stable home environment, addiction, past trauma, etc.

In some countries if children are killed by the mother within the first year after birth, it is automatically considered to be a mental health issue, as opposed to a criminal act. It seems pretty clear that any mother who would kill her children is mentally ill. But the cause and the motives remain unclear, especially in cases where the mother is educated, supported, and living an outwardly normal life.

The case of Lindsay Clancy is probably one of the most perplexing cases of all, as it was clearly a premeditated act. If a sleep deprived, depressed mother throws her colicky baby against a wall at 3 am – it would be understood as an impulsive act. If a mentally ill woman gets to the stage where she is hearing voices, rambling on an on about UFOs or demons, and is increasingly erratic, dishevelled, and unable to care for herself or anyone else, it is also pretty obvious that she cannot take on any added responsibility.

But with Lindsay Clancy, she was driving, going to appointments, talking normally, sending photos of building snowmen, etc. without any cause for alarm. Unlike most severely mentally ill people, she was able to dress herself and the children, and carry out activities of daily living.

In addition, she was able to calculate the timelines to carry out the murders to the minute. She sent her husband on an errand, and checked the length of time on an Internet map to find out how long it would take to complete those errands. She had it figured out well in advance. Murder begins in the heart, then the thoughts, then the planning, then the action. It is interesting to note that many murderers, to include depressed and homicidal mothers, will create a detailed to do list, which is often located by police when doing the investigation.

Some of those lists are chilling, like all the purchases they need to make are put onto a shopping list. Things like shovel, gloves, tarp, bleach, and other cleaning supplies. You would think when it comes to the actual planning, most people would come to their senses. But the evidence ends up proving otherwise.

In many cases the delusions, or self deception surrounding murder, revolves around mercy killing, sending the person to heaven, doing the world and God a favour, etc. Such is the capacity for denial and self deception. It also explains why so many refuse to take responsibility for their crimes, firmly believing they had no other choice, or that it was done through a fault not attributed to themselves. A lack of remorse is a dire indication of psychopathy and evil. 

In one comment section on the Lindsay Clancy case, a person claiming to be a healthcare professional, said it was not Lindsay who carried out the murders, but rather it was the psychosis that carried out the murders. Apparently she had nothing to do with it. How people come up with such skewed logic is beyond me. I don’t believe she should be automatically hanged by public opinion. Nor do I believe she should be automatically exonerated. Hopefully, the judicial system is intact enough to present the evidence, along with balanced legal arguments. 

From what is known already, Lindsay Clancy also created a to do list. It has been reported she calculated the timelines through Internet map checks, and sent her husband to a takeout place, further away than the normal takeout places they would use to get food. She also asked him to stop at a drug store to buy a children’s laxative, which is really strange, considering what her plans were. It shows she was putting on an act of normalcy, added to the errand, to stall the husband, in order to give herself enough time to carry out the murders. Apparently she also acted cheerful, and normal on that particular day, so there was no cause for alarm.

Her husband claimed she had been having a “good day, one of her better days.” Incredible really. Much more so, than if she had been acting strangely. She very capably hid her true motives and plans from all those around her. No doubt it will be a bone to chew on for the prosecution, and a difficult scenario to defend. They can hardly claim she was deranged, and sick beyond comprehension. 

Andrea Yates also had a to do list, in that she waited until her husband was gone for an hour or so. She also had only a brief window of time, because her mother or mother-in-law was due to arrive to help care for the children, knowing Andrea was in a state of depression and mental instability.

Andrea Yates, like Lindsay Clancy, used that very brief window of time, when alone with the children, to carry out a calculated and premeditated to do list. Yates filled the bath tub with water, locked up the dog, and systematically drowned five children, one after the other. Following that, she laid them out, and posed them, with the baby in the crook of the arm of her big brother. Then she sat down and calmly made some phone calls. 

Lindsay Clancy also executed a homicidal to do list, which begs the question whether or not these women had more in common with the general homicidal population, as opposed to the issue of postpartum depression. Of course, this is pure speculation on my part. People simply do not want to believe mothers can be murderers. But murder is something people in the general population can carry out, and mothers are part of the general population. 

In my opinion what is most alarming is the outpouring of support for Lindsay Clancy, claiming what a wonderful perfect mother she was. Perhaps the issue of perfectionism, and the illusion of perfectionism versus reality needs to be explored more. If young women grow up with the idea of getting married and living happily ever after, with a white picket fence, and a romantic vision of a perfect life, perhaps they become quite disillusioned over time.

Given what she did, is it really in her best interests to have all her friends and co-workers write hundreds of letters claiming she was the perfect mother, and a wonderful caring nurse? Then how does anyone reconcile what she did, while still giving an outward appearance of being normal? Perhaps these claims prove she was adept at hiding her true self, and the rage within her? Perhaps it proves she was a master manipulator?

It just seems odd to watch a case unfold where a mother murders all three of her children, and clearly planned to do so, followed by a million dollars in donations to the husband. Even though those funds supposedly cannot be used for her legal fees, the couple is still married, and she would be entitled to half the assets.

There is a fine line between compassion and leniency to include financial gain. It is not a good sign to see society demonstrate such an outpouring of support to bury three children, as a result of homicide, without consequences, combined with a significant financial gain.

The very sympathetic lawyer claimed she was suffering severe postpartum depression, and tried to join her children in death. If that were the case, she would be dead. She knew how to make sure the children had zero chance of survival, and she did not make a lethal attempt on her own life. Would she have jumped from a fifteenth story window? A second story window onto the grass below, is not likely to be fatal. Some things are quite obvious. In addition, during all the fund raising, and initial outpouring of sympathy, there were claims she was paralyzed. Those claims have already turned out to be false. Apparently she is now moving her legs, and is clearly not paralyzed. 

Diane Downs drove to a remote location, and shot her three children. She then shot herself in the arm, and drove very slowly to the hospital. When she got there she claimed a bushy haired man had shot them. The children’s injuries were fatal, or critically life threatening, while hers was quite minor.

Darlie Routier viciously stabbed her two young boys to death, and then cut herself. She was out of the hospital, and doing a macabre birthday party, singing, laughing, chewing gum, and casting silly string on the gravesites, just a week later. Clearly her injuries were not the least bit life threatening. Some people claim her injuries could have been fatal, just like Lindsay Clancy’s injuries could have been fatal. But they were not fatal, and what they could have been does not count. It is pure conjecture to say what they could have been. 

When we say to ourselves, something is wrong with this picture, there is perhaps no greater contradictions of motherly love than what we see in the Lindsay Clancy case, especially when combined with public perception. Another shocking element is when it was reported her first question after being taken to the hospital was “do I need an attorney?”

Wouldn’t you think she would be overwhelmed with grief and remorse, and unconsolable, if she did what she did in a moment of psychotic madness? Besides that, no one strangles three people in a moment. How did she know for certain all the children were dead? Wouldn’t you think that might have been her first question? After all, the youngest one was transferred to hospital, and did not die until three days later. If what the news reports have said is true, concern for those children did not even cross her mind. Her first concern was for herself, which speaks volumes. 

There was no outpouring of public support for other notorious child murderers, even though there might have been sympathy for a mental illness that would lead to such atrocities. The motives of Diane Downs, and Susan Smith became apparent with the investigation, as both were having affairs, and wanting their freedom. The motives of Andrea Yates appeared to be religious delusions.

The outpouring of support for Lindsay Clancy, in my opinion, it is far too early in the investigation to draw definitive conclusions, and overlook other possible motives. The couple’s financial records may come to light, as well as whether or not there had been any extramarital affairs, or a rocky relationship with her spouse. Many child homicides are based on revenge toward the other parent.

As far as what kind of expert psychiatric testimony might be brought forward in the Lindsay Clancy case, the article by some of the experts in the field, serves to highlight how little is known about postpartum depression and filicide. The entire goal of understanding something as disturbing as child homicide, is or should be, to find ways to prevent it.

In my opinion, in cases of mental instability or failure to cope, the mother should be relieved of caregiving duties for a period of time. If she is still functional, she should go swimming three or four times a week, or get other forms of fresh air and exercise, as well as a nutrient rich diet. She should also have hobbies, and outside interests that help validate her as a human being, as opposed to being delegated to housework, cooking, and caregiving as the primary basis of her self identity. For some women, being stuck at home with children feels like a trap, unless there are other outlets to help balance the demands of caregiving.

The other thing about “getting help” as so many people seem to focus on, revolves around seeing doctors and psychiatrists, which means being prescribed potent and often addictive medications that further mess with the brain, and hormonal system.

Benzodiazepines, first in the genre of Valium aka “mother’s little helpers” a phrase coined by the Rolling Stones in the sixties, created a plethora of addicted and zombie like mothers. They then had the complex, and additional task of dealing with a raging addiction. Now the same class of drugs is re-labelled as Xanax, Clonazepam, and Ativan, among others. But the effects are the same. 

In order to avoid such tragedies, perhaps we need to rethink what help for mental illness really means. It could very well be out of our range to understand what is in the heart and mind of another individual. But rather than view help as being a wholly psychiatric issue, perhaps it should be more grassroots.

Real help might mean family members taking over child care, cleaning, laundry, making meals, offering financial supports, and helping husbands to be more aware of what needs to be done around the house. It might mean finding ways to increase positive social interactions with other adults.

One of the sad realities is that the world is full of flawed and character disordered individuals. In fact, there is no such thing as a perfect mother, even though some are more saintly than others. At present, we do not have the answers. However we all should find ways to take care of our own mental health, and maintain self-control regardless of the circumstances we are in. After all if a person cannot control themselves, who can?

The Lindsay Clancy case was by definition a mass murder, which involves the killing of two or more victims within a short time frame. The leniency or support for the killer should not be automatic, and we should not lose sight of the innocent victims. In addition, the attention, outpouring of support, money, and sympathy, might create copycat crimes, or a justification for other desperate mothers to do the same.

Societal laws and attitudes should protect children above all else. Let’s hope we don’t lose sight of that, regardless of the outcome of this particular case. Below is the link providing some insight into the psychiatry, and defence that might be mounted to reduce the consequences of the crimes.

https://ajp.psychiatryonline.org/doi/pdf/10.1176/appi.ajp.162.9.1578

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The Terrible Case Of Nurse Lindsay Clancy Who Murdered Her Three Young Children

This horrific case holds many similarities to the Andrea Yates murders of her five young children in 2001. Both of these murderous mothers were nurses, both were married, and living with their families in modest, normal looking homes at the time of their horrific crimes.

Both of them killed by obliterating the airways, or ability to breathe, in one case through drowning, and in the other case through ligature strangulation, or asphyxiation. Most nurses know the ABC priorities for survival, with A standing for airway, which makes these cases that much more disturbing. They went for the surest, and most expedient way to cause death, by systematically taking away the airways of their victims.

All nurses, and first responders, are first and foremost taught how to assess, manage and above all – protect the airways of patients. These women who were also nurses, intentionally set out to do just the opposite, to their very own children, not as a matter of neglect, but with the intent to obstruct the airways, with a premeditated plan in order to kill them.

Few things could be more incomprehensible in scope, intent, and absolute, definitive life ending cruelty. They took the God given breath of life, right out of the epitome of trust, and innocence, as is known to all human beings. Once the deed is done, there is no turning back. They knew it too. There can be no denying the fact they knew it was an irreversible act, regardless of their mental state at the time.

Andrea Yates had worked as an RN at MD Anderson, a cancer research centre in Houston Texas, and Lindsay Clancy was a labour and delivery nurse at Massachusetts General Hospital in Boston. Both killed all of their children, and both were in their thirties when they committed the crimes.

Both of these women, were mothers with husbands who claimed to love and support them. Neither one of them were abused or battered by their spouses. They were not unstable, immature teenage single mothers addicted to meth or opiates. They did not appear to have unplanned or unwanted pregnancies. They were professionals living superficially ordinary lives, which many people might have envied.

In both cases, a defence of postpartum depression, and psychosis, is what laid the groundwork for the defence. In the case of Andrea Yates, her condition was more overtly psychotic, in that she was steeped in religious delusions, and believed she, and the children were being affected by demons. As a contributing factor, she and her husband were following the cultish beliefs of street preacher Michael Woroniecki, who was known for certain outrageous, attention seeking tactics.

The preacher in the Andrea Yates case was arrested on multiple occasions in the US, due to the extremism, and sometimes outlandish methods of outreach he was known for. At one point, he travelled to Morocco where his street preaching incited a riot, and once again he was arrested, and then promptly deported. It turned out the Yates couple at one point, bought a converted bus from this preacher, which they lived in prior to moving into a house in Houston, Texas. Andrea was left in a confined space to care for the children, as well as to home school them, without proper cooking and washing facilities.

Because it is still early in the Lindsay Clancy case, less is known about their family history, religious beliefs, and family dynamics. What has been reported, is that the husband was working from a home office in the basement. There was also a go fund me page set up after the murders with a goal of reaching $750,000.00, and following that it was increased to a million.

It does seem a bit sketchy to raise such hefty funds, because the burial of three children would not cost much, and apparently the go fund me money cannot go toward a legal defence. No doubt the details of the family finances will surface as the investigation progresses.

The husband also made social media pleas to forgive his wife, shortly after the murders. This could simply be a response to the tragedy on his part, but forgiveness is a process, and for something so horrific, would most likely take a very long time. In the case of Andrea Yates, the husband supported her in the initial aftermath, but soon filed for divorce. He remarried, had another child, and then the second wife filed for divorce.

Apparently Lindsay was on maternity leave at the time of the murders. Between October and January, it was reported she had been prescribed thirteen different psychiatric medications. At the time of the murders in late January, she was supposedly taking three to four medications, specifically benzodiazepines and SSRI’s, as well as sleeping pills or an antipsychotic medication. In several of the reports, it refers to the amount she was taking at the time of the murders, as “only three or four prescription medications” trying to downplay it. A prescription for benzos or even just one potent antipsychotic drug is excessive for a young mother with small children, so it is crazy to claim three or four psychoactive prescription drugs is of little consequence.

The fact she was prescribed thirteen different drugs, means she was drug seeking, and not willing to wait, or try other wellness oriented type treatments. The only other situation in which so many drugs would be prescribed over such a short period of time, is if the person is in the hospital, and cannot be controlled – like completely and totally off the deep end, screaming incoherently, not sleeping or eating, or settling down at all. Otherwise, even if a person is very psychotic, the doctor will prescribe a drug, and then monitor the effects for a period of at least two or three weeks before making changes.

Obtaining prescriptions for thirteen different medications, means she was repeatedly going to the doctor. Was she drug seeking? Or could she have been setting up an insanity defence? As a nurse, she would know there are limits to what one can take, how many, and the fact that most medications take time to work, or create a blood level. So the excessive doctor’s visits and drug seeking also raises red flags.

It has also been reported she was making numerous Facebook posts about all the medications, and attempts to seek treatments. Was she trying to set up a scenario for long term disability so she did not have to return to work? It seems odd to post such personal mental health details on Facebook, but then again, we live in a tell all world these days. Even so, it could come back to haunt her, as it might be interpreted as setting the stage, or as attempts to manipulate impressions or outcomes.

In the case of Andrea Yates, she was prescribed Haldol, a potent antipsychotic, which is also very sedating. For many reasons it has since been discontinued, and pulled from the shelves. Andrea Yates was outwardly sicker than Lindsay Clancy, in that she had frequent delusions, suicide attempts, and psychotic episodes. However both of them were coherent and somewhat logical. I have seen and listened to mentally ill patients who can hardly string sentences together, and if they can, they make no sense at all. They will constantly talk about, or refer to things no one else can see, and often the hallucinations are vivid, detailed, and grandiose.

Neither one of these women were openly psychotic. When Andrea Yates killed all five of her children, she did have the presence of mind to lock up the family dog, as well as to call the police after the fact, and calmly tell them to come to the residence. She also called her husband, and told him to come home. She knew what she had done, and like Lindsay Clancy, she did it during a brief timeframe of being alone with the children. Therefore, in both cases, they knew what they were doing was wrong, and there was a clear plan to hide the crimes while they carried them out. They were calculating, with clarity of thought processes, advanced planning, and premeditation in what they did. They were not incoherent, or babbling about being chased by crimson coloured flying demons.

In the case of Lindsay Clancy, she was behaving normal, and was able to drive, run errands, take her children to appointments etc. which is quite amazing, given the sedating effects of benzodiazepines. In my opinion, both of these cases prove that doctors, specifically psychiatrists, are ordering potent drugs without giving consideration to the care of small children, or the safety of driving.

Just as a person with epilepsy who has seizures, will lose a driver’s license for a period of time, so too should those who are prescribed antipsychotics, and sedative drugs, especially given the fact they are also mentally unstable, and presumedly unpredictable. Even a prescription for many of the SSRI’s can lead to erratic behaviours and suicidal ideation, therefore they should not be prescribed with such brazen indifference to the reactions, or drug interactions that might occur. In addition to the driving considerations, the children’s services should be notified, as one would reasonably presume – if a person is psychotic or suicidal, they cannot possibly look after young children.

The other thing to consider in all cases, is there is a family dynamic involved, which is a contributing factor, and is often overlooked or downplayed. In the case of Andrea Yates, her husband appeared to be insane as well, and was chatty, and very inappropriate following the murders. Although he was a professional engineer working for NASA, he had the family living in a converted school bus for part of the time. He was also a religious extremist, and thought it was just fine to keep having babies, in spite of his wife’s deteriorating mental health, and inability to cope.

Perhaps one of the truisms we can take away from such tragedies, is rather than view children as extensions of, or as possessions of their parents, they are in fact God’s children first and foremost, and His creation, and are known to God before they are even conceived.

The Bible does say God gives us breath, which is the spirit of life. He breathes life into us at birth, which makes taking breath away, an incredible violation of God’s gift of life. All of creation comes from, and belongs to God. Without God there would not be any life at all. So to treat children as an extension of self is narcissism, and is not in the best interest of the child.

It is also true that many people who develop psychosis or delusions will become immersed in religious interpretations, often based on cultish religious leaders, or misinterpretations of what they read in the Bible. They tend to focus on demons, hell, punishment and drum up a rescue of sorts, or at least will make claims to be saving the children from hell, or demonic possession, etc.

The Bible and the promises contained within the gospel, never advises people to be violent, or to kill or harm another person, much less a child. All instructions given in the Bible revolve around love, forgiveness, perseverance, hope, salvation, and repentance. Anyone who enters into a cycle of torment and punishment based on religious beliefs, is delusional and psychotic. In many cases cultish type delusions are the most dangerous of all, because a person can genuinely believe they are hearing voices or instructions from God, when they are actually experiencing auditory hallucinations.

All deviations from the truth of the gospel such as with cult religions, narcissistic religious leaders, control freaks who use the Bible as a deceptive form of authority, and those who lose touch with reality, and enter a supernatural world, are probably the most dangerous forms of mental illness. Throughout history there have been many cult leaders who coerced large groups of people into committing mass murders, and mass suicides, to include sacrificing innocent children. The Bible describes the fruits of the spirit as being: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, faith, gentleness and self-control. Therefore any beliefs involving religious deviations from the truths in the Bible, are based on false, and deceptive religions and cults. 

None of the beliefs, no matter how far fetched, or how psychotic and delusional they are, should absolve any person of the responsibility of committing violent crimes against innocent people. It is not the psychosis that commits the crime. It is people who carry out the criminal acts, and if they carry out crimes of violence and murder, they must be held accountable, with a priority to protect others from any further harm. Pity for psychosis lacks an appropriate, and just empathy for the victims. It is misplaced, and provides an excuse for violent crimes without accountability. The vast majority of people who are mentally ill and suffer from delusions and psychosis, do not commit violent crimes.

In my opinion, we cannot give ourselves over to evil, commit horrific crimes, and then blame it on psychosis. Self control cannot be the responsibility of someone other than self. Every adult learns about self control as they mature, and if no one developed self control, the world would be in a perpetual state of anarchy, chaos, disorder and violence. Innocent people need to be protected from unbridled out of control violence, regardless of the underlying reasons for the violence.

I believe people with serious mental health disorders should receive treatment, but if they commit violent crimes, they must also be held accountable for those crimes, and face the same length of incarceration as a non-psychotic person would face. Otherwise there is not much incentive to maintain self control, and to overcome the negatives in our lives.

One of the glaring contradictions in all of this, is that when a father murders his young children, it is seen as an act of rage, domestic violence, and revenge. He is almost always viewed as a monster. Very little sympathy is extended toward fathers who kill. But in the case of horrific child murders involving mothers attacking, and annihilating their young children, there is much more compassion, and an outpouring of sympathy.

I am much more skeptical of all people who intentionally harm young children. Although I realize both parents can face extenuating circumstances, and debilitating mental illnesses, we should never lose sight of the victims, and how truly helpless children are, if an adult caregiver decides to harm them.

In both the Andrea Yates and the Lindsay Clancy cases, in spite of all the talk of having suicidal ideation, neither one of them took their own life. Both were kinder to themselves, and gave their own lives a fighting chance, compared to what they gave to their children. Yates did nothing to herself at all, even though she thought she was demon possessed too. She sat down and waited for the police to arrive instead of taking things a step further and ending her own life.

After murdering all three children, Lindsay went upstairs and made a half hearted attempt to cut herself, without damaging any major arteries, even though she had a working knowledge of anatomy and physiology. She could have put a rope around her neck and hung herself, cutting off her airway as she had just done to her children. But she did not cut off her own air supply.

Instead she jumped from a second story window. Most people would know, they are likely to survive such a fall, even if they do get  injured. In spite of the fact there are reports she is paralyzed, it may not be permanent, and she could be pretending to have no feeling in her legs. I know it sounds harsh to say she might be faking paralysis, but it is quite possible, in order to gain sympathy.

It is not always possible to determine if there is irreversible damage to the spinal cord, especially with lower back injuries. Many people with lower back injuries have been told they will never walk again, only to get up and walk out of the hospital just days or weeks later. She also asked almost immediately if she needed an attorney, which is a clear indication, she is invested in her own well being, and already intends to try and reduce any consequences she might be facing. Does she have remorse? It is almost unfathomable to be lacking remorse in such a situation, but who knows? Time will tell I suppose.

I think the end results with both of these nurses actions, speaks to homicidal rage, as opposed to being suicidal. But it does bring to focus the fact that suicidal ideation, and homicidal actions, can be closely related. If a person loses value for his or her own life, the people around them are at risk as well.

Perhaps the most shocking commonality between these two women, was the inclination to keep having more children, in spite of the fact they seemed to realize they were mentally ill. In spite of the fact they were both educated as nurses, and knew how to prevent conception. In spite of the fact they already had a healthy family, and could have stopped at having one or two children, if they found the demands of raising young children to be overwhelming.

Both of them continued to have more children, and continued to express the desire to have even more. Lindsay was making comments about getting pregnant again, even when she was still on maternity leave, and in the midst of her downward spiral into murdering all of her children.

And surprisingly, the husbands in both cases also seemed to think this was all okay, even though their wives were showing signs of faltering mental health, and a complete failure to cope. It seems there was a lack of realistic expectations, and self awareness. Clearly, logic was not in the equation for some reason. Perhaps it is due to an over romanticized vision of extending oneself by having more children, or pride in the concept of fertility. That’s just a guess, because it is hard to conceive of any other reasons.

I think in all cases of murder, there is a motive, and also a degree of insanity, whether it is due to drugs, personality disorders, evil inclinations, unbridled rage, or a predisposition to mental illness. When a parent murders a child, I believe there is often a complex family dynamic involving resentment and revenge.

Years ago, I recall reading about a case where a father, and mother were separated, and in a heated custody battle. When the father had the children one weekend, he called his ex-wife, and forced her to listen to him shoot the children, as she screamed for them to run. Also, many embittered custody battles have contributed to spousal murders, and murder for hire, involving both men and women as perpetrators of such crimes.

In fact, many cases of spousal and child murders are related to family breakdown and custody battles, therefore the revenge motive is likely a root cause in child murders. If there is to be a better understanding, and a way to prevent such tragedies, there are certain things to consider. The courts are often viewed as unfair toward the fathers. Men with more money and influence, can often wield power over the woman. These things lay the groundwork for bitter battles, where both might lose sight of the best interest of the children.

Parental separation, dysfunction, and conflict creates a battleground with innocent victims. In the case of Lindsay Clancy and Andrea Yates, the medication they were prescribed did not protect the children, did not cure their illnesses, and quite possibly contributed to the tragedies.

All cases of severe postpartum depression where potent medications are prescribed should have proper follow up, and arrangements made for the care of the children. There should also be an in-depth family assessment, because it does appear to be worsened by a complex relationship dynamic, unreasonable expectations, and simmering resentments.

The extended family should never be shut out of a family, as they are the most likely ones to offer loving, and practical interventions that might help the family through a crisis. If there is abuse or shunning toward one member of the family, there is a risk for others in the family to be abused or mistreated as well. If those with the most power, abuse power over the weaker members of the family, it creates an unhealthy dynamic that can be manifested for several generations. Deception, greed, and abuse of power are the silent killers of the family.

The issue of postpartum depression is one most women can relate to, at least to some extent. There are many hormonal changes, a lack of sleep, and often overwhelming responsibilities that young women must face. It is exacerbated if there is a lack of family support, single parenting, drug and alcohol abuse, inadequate resources, financial stressors, excessive workload, and a lack of positive social interactions.

We all do crazy things throughout our lifetimes, but some things are over the top. Another example of extremism, although it may seem less notorious, is the case of the famous British woman mountaineer Alison Hargreaves. She embarked on a dangerous and rigorous climb of the north face of Mt. Eiger when she was six months pregnant. Some people would consider that to be quite a feat. Others would consider it to be insane and reckless endangerment, even though it is considered to be an accomplishment. Ultimately the effects on her children turned out to be devastating, with long term consequences.

Following the climb while pregnant, when her children were still very young, she did a successful solo hike of Mt. Everest without a sherpa, and without supplemental oxygen. However in 1995, while hiking with a group on the formidable K2 mountain, she succumbed to the elements in a storm, when her children were just four and six years old.

The tragedy did not stop there. Her son Tom Ballard, who she was pregnant with on the Mt. Eiger climb, grew up to follow in his mother’s footsteps as a fearless climber. He was just six years old when his mother died, and he too died climbing, just twenty four years later.

Although these family tragedies seem far removed from each other, they do illustrate how selfish ambition, and a variety of unknown stressors, can lead up to extreme losses. In the case of the British climber and mother, Alison Hargreaves, the family was faced with many financial pressures, and a foreclosure on their home. Her role as a professional climber, made her the sole breadwinner, and ended up being a contributing factor in the risks she took.

When faced with criticism, many people chimed in with opinions about men going on high risk climbs, without as much derision toward them for leaving young children behind. They gave accolades and encouragement to women climbers, in a quest to be more equal in the mountaineering challenges.

In all cases, the choices adults make, whether male or female, and the family dynamics created by those choices, can have an insurmountable effect on the children.

Under the surface of all the foggy and errant vision, causing people to lose the path, they are often due to selfish or ill-conceived pursuits, or anger, or the attempt to prove something. Then out of the blue, there is a storm, a loss of control, or a moment of madness, leading to a most regrettable outcome.

In some cases, there is no turning back. In the case of Lindsay Clancy and Andrea Yates, they set up scenarios they can never go back on, or find relief from. They can never recover. They cannot bring those lives back. They cannot change what they did.

They did plan it, and embark on an irreversible plot, for reasons we may never know. In the case of Lindsay, she may look back on her youth, her suburban life with three beautiful children, a career, and a husband, and wonder why on earth she did what she did.

Whatever her regrets, and whether or not she is destined to a life in a wheelchair, or a life sentence in jail, what could ever make her take such a course? It does not appear she met the criteria for being legally insane. Yet, whatever her motives were, there is no more solid ground under her feet, no more snowmen to build, and no more normal life to lead. If normal was hard to cope with, what is in store for her now? Life as she knew it is gone forever, buried under an avalanche of rage, that came tumbling down off an icy ridge.

Our pursuits and decisions in life are so often tied to things without merit, that could give way to catastrophic outcomes. At the end of each day, or better yet, at the beginning of each day, we would be wise to give thanks, to count our blessings, and to carefully consider the path we are on. Because certain wrong turns, can never be remedied.

Some falls go into a cavernous abyss, with no bottom, and no end in sight – leaving nothing but a gaping question mark as to why, and what could have been done to prevent it?

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